xXx tHe Chronicles of Glenda's Life and Death xXx

hellos

2006-05-04T17:15:00.000+08:00

okies. i know its been long since i was here. lols.
but yes, as usual, many things happened. lols.

yet again my geog teacher has postponed her stupid remedial thrice.
first it was supposed to be on tues. then she postphoned it to weds for no particular reason.
then on weds she happily postphoned it to today pobably due to bio exam. nvm, i was nice enough to wait though it starts only at 1pm and my papers end at 1015.

guess wad?? she didn't even come. i can't use a word to describe how bloodly pissed i was.
i was like. grrrrr. grrrr// i did tore her into pieces if i saw her. thank god i didn't.
till 1:40 she has yet to come therefore all of us went off.
then, she now changed it to next tues which i have a bad feeling that it will be changed again. nvm. couldn't care less. was just EXTREMELY BOTHERED that i wasted my time in school. lols. ah nvm.

frustrating matters aside,
A MATH paper was alright.
i couldn't really solve coordinate D though. hmms.
was kinda stuck. lols.
can't do much now. lols.

tml i need not go to school! yay!
lols. i don't take pure geog you see =D

anyway, i think i am starting to like chinese songs
got some of them today. lols.

maybe by doing so, my chinese will improve!
whoohoo. way to go! ;p

talking about heart to heart matters,
been feeling quite bothered or rather amazed at ppl.
as in i know i am one. but er. wad i meant was how they feel or react to certain things.
i am feeling quite protective lately.
many things going thru my head which i try to let it come out of my head too.
but thats a bit more difficult. lols.

take this morning, i manage to get what i want but the other party didn't seem very happy yet i couldn't care less.
lols. argh. i dunno. this is so frustrating//

lols. hmms. what else. yupp ms gan i think thats her name asked for my web add. so if you are here HELLO!
hahs. i know i always see you in school so we started to say hi! lols.

isn't it how funny ppl meet?? lols.
yupp but its nice knowing you =D
hahs.

gtg.
eat. study. slack.
that's my life>>

blahhhh

2006-04-26T18:27:00.000+08:00

feeling rather cranky and kept feeling like complaining.lols.
not that hyper today. lols. hahs.
very tired. muscles aching like siao especially in the arms abs and thigh.
cannot bend down or laugh or cough or even sneeze lah.
when i woke up this morning, i thought what happened lah so hard to get up.
conseqences of pushing too hard during NAFA. but got gold!! =D yay!
lols. eh. many things going to my mind. no comments lah

sometimes the WORST solution to one can be the BEST solution FOR ALL OF US>>

nvm.
i seriously need help for MID YEARS MAN!
i need someone to push me.
constantly remind me not to slack lah.
i spent 3 hrs watching tv and gluing myself to the com lah. WTH
i am so angry with myself .

chinese exam this fri.
hope i "make it"

certain things when you don't put your heart and soul into it, even if you failit doesn't really matter. but when you do, it all becomes different.

haiz.
taggie still not up yet so sorry guys.
gtg.

maybe the next time i post,
my world would have changed.

is it the lesser the better or the more the merrier??
i guess it depends on who.
haiz.
so messed up
stressed up and confused.
maybe i should care less.
i should

go on. spoil my day//

2006-04-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

blah. was feeling rather pissed at the end of the day.
was rather "dissapointed" inverted commas cause i am no one to care about her actually. but WTH can't take it with a teacher i HAD a great respect for. notice the past tense used. lols.

you see, she/he up to you to guess who wanted to ask if anyone was interested in some this programme that takes place tml for like eh 5 hrs?? yupp. saw the consent form. anyways, nobody was really free so none of us wanted to go. then, she/he was like in a rage. she/he started to ask us one by one what we were doing tml what time, where, for what.

i was like WTF. my mum doesn't even do that lah. hey we are humans also lah. we deserve some respect too. think what now interrogiation ah?? WTH. to me, i felt that she was being very rude to this student especially when her grandma has just been admitted into the hospital lah. now its not the time to discuss some stupid thing you are asking us to go for the point i am trying to make is that. does she/he realise that whatever she/he just said will affect the student emotionally?? you the teacher is like blaming her for not going for yr stupid thing because she wants to visit her grandma. the time she took to actually go doesn't matter. how the hell would you know that actually for the past few days she really wanted to go but was not allowed to due to other personal reasons. and yet you the teacher had to ASSUME EVERYTHING. she unfilial now then go. WTH. TO HELL WITH ASSUMATIONS!

PLAIN UNREASONABLE. ALL YOU DO IS ASSUME! YOU NEVER EVEN STAND IN OUR SHOES AND THOUGHT FOR US. SOME TEACHER YOU ARE.

pls bear in mind that this was a teacher i ONCE respected greatly. a teacher i look up to. a teacher who could really connect with us. a teacher who i admired.
LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING: NOW THIS BECOMES>> RUBBISH.

NEXT SHE/HE ASSUME that we were - the 3e2s -the 7 of us were KINGS AND QUEENS who could change their REMEDIAL and TESTS DATES & TIMES as easy as going to the TOLIET. WTH.
she/he said that our "excuse" for not going because of remedial and tests were what "i don't believe you all can't change yr remedials to another day" whats this man?! did i just hear this from her/him?? hey teacher you know something " i don't believe that you can't change the stupid programme date to another day" just because of us. isn't this STUPID and PURE NONSENSE. just because of the measely 7 of us out of 41 you expect my maths teacher to change the remedial date?? FAT HOPE YOU KNOW. REALLY FAT ONE. // CONTINUE DREAMING AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY SOMEONE SLAPS YOU TO WAKE YOU UP!

in short, i feel that she was really mean and unreasonable. i wonder if the previous "teacher" i knew was putting up a fake mask. and this is the real one!
actually the main reasons that we didn't want to go was first for e2s we all have remedial as you know my class' AMATH is going abit slow. and many of us failed our physics test so heres the retest we all wanted. for the rest, e1s i guess mainly due to exams and stuff. for the rest they had nothing but just not interested to go yet this teacher don't tell them off yet scold those who has stuff on. WTH. did she just lose her mind?! i think so you know.

i could have been nice and took the consent form. but guess wad. why be nice when others aren't that nice. no point giving false hope also lah. later she happy then i make him/her sad again. i'm not so mean you know. anyway this teacher whom i have not much respect left of her/him, will have a hard time next time. my whole class after the lesson was damn pissed with her. creating an uproar in the class. lols. see she/he not only wasted our time but his/hers too and spoiled his/her image in our hearts. what a nice thing to do to yourself huh =O

i uttered a unwilling bye when i saw him/her at the end of the day.
though slightly regretting it later.
anyway, teacher, thanks for making me not like the subject even more and er A BIG THANK YOU FOR DOING THIS JUST BEFORE THE EXAM ;D

this post is absolutely scarastic.
but i guess desperate times call for desperate ways.
ah. now i feel much better. :p

i passed NAFA well! yay! whoohoo. way to go man>>
ciaoz.

blah>>

2006-04-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

rants>>

lols. hahs. surprisingly there was comments to my previous post! lols
hahs. dun get overly protective guys. a blog is for rantings. lols.
//}define{ rantings }} \\ ">//___ things that people talk about in a unclear state of mind }}---

lols. hahs. found in my very own dictionary. lols. at least thats wad it means to me! =D
lols. anyway shall not be blogging for a while as i will be busy preparing for my mid years! lols. though seeing its the usual me i may find time to slack and come online x)
hahs.

anyway feeling very erms. how to say. you see, mr lim wants me to go to China for the exchange trip. but on the other hand, there's a sce three adventure camp which clashes with it. and through i am fine going to china i really want to go for the camp which is in JB!
i mean come on i really dun want to disapoint anyone when everytime i see him he's like
zhi ying ni guo lai" and i know its the trip again. lols. and he keeps insisting that mrs tan wants me to go >.< [sam taught me this]lols
i don't want to please someone and in the ned i feel bad about myself and regret my decision.

trouble matters aside,
after annual awards that day, me mel sam and lionels went to thompson for PRATA!! lols. supper. it was okay lah. lols. hahs. quite fun had a ride from lionel on the way home. hahs. shiok! save all the trouble of walking. thanks lionel once again =D

hmms. looks like i got some decisions to make and some studying to do.
hahs//
see ya ppl.

i have a LIFE to LIVE ONCE. so leave me alone for ONCE!
see it rhyms! i think i spelled it wrongly. yupp. but dun bother. lols.

hey do remember to tag at http://enlightened-one.twilight-rhapsody.com/ and compare the skins. yupps. thanks alot guys!!

council >>

2006-04-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

blahhs. mid years coming.
lols. just stop and feel the pressure dunno how nay thousnd pascals!! lols.

anyway. the council has just kinda go thru some rollar coaster ride and now we have found some light and we are heading that way hopefully we dun get lost again

anyway. my badge is really very very how should i put it??
RIDICULOUS. i mean come off it. WTH.
so many stupid things have happened and our image has once gone down the drain deeper.

and its as if i have got so little things to do that internal conflicts is on. WTH.
grow up ppl.

WTH. was so pissed off today i lost my cool and set the room into total silence.
lols. see the power that lies within me is so much that i think i am about to use it to get some "idiotic" ppl out. so as to help the council unless they can prove that they are not.

and some as just there for display. *talking about the whole council.
some just think that since i know you. you are my friend thus i will sheltered.
i am sorry. but you are so wrong. yeah phyllis! i agree with you.
we ought to teach u guys some stuff

many times. i tell myself that i am still just a just 15 year old kid that is facing and leading a bunch of "not automatic" ppl i would say to face the school. the results of this is will of course be not really fantastic. but yet do these ppl realise that some things are beyond my control??

sometimes you expect so much from that i believe you wouldn't even be able to do that.
sometimes i feel that i am facing this all alone.
and nobody is going to help me.
sometimes i feel that the world is about to collaspe and yet u run away and let it come down on me.
are u actually with me??
i doubt so.

juniors seem to getting ans from u always. but yet to realise that its actually right in front of them. they ask of so much and complain of so much that sometimes i feel they think we are super heros. they forget about things easily and i question their loyalty. they think i dun care but in fact i care a lot. do you actually know that what each of you do affects me in every way??

the way u speak to yr teachers. becomes the way ppl assume how i speak to them.
the every way u act reflects on how BADLY i have brought u all " up to".

the every single thing u do. reflects on me.
stop doing what i don't do. cause I AM NOT YOU. I AM NEVER YOU.
STOP IT NOW.

many times i feel like thrashing u guys up. yet i remind myself that u all are actually not really going to change wad ever i do. and i question myself on why do i blame so much on me/??

WHEN ITS ACTUALLY YOU WHO DESERVES IT??
WHY.

where is yr commitment?? am i leading a bunch of useless ppl or am i the wan who is useless??
i doubt so.

you are the choosen leaders of the school yet you act like its NO BIG DEAL.
you wear the tie for display purposes and don't bother about yr behaviour.

LEADERS OF THE SCHOOL?? i doubt so.

WHAT AM I ACTUALLY LEADING??
WHAT EXACTLY??

THE ANS IS >> WHAT ARE U EXACTLY. SHALL BE WHAT I AM LEADING...

so tell me wad u are and i will tell you where actually you belong.

MY LIFE>> so far

2006-04-17T21:32:00.001+08:00

hmms.
thinking and thinking
and still thinking.

so many things to be done yet so little time.

i have mid years coming -next fri to be exact
this leadership series the council board has to every year
especially when we are planning it this year. gosh.
the pros and cons of being the president.

sometimes i find my status just simpily over estimating me.
i mean come on.
but i try not to think about it.
i have to move on.
i have to live up and keep up to it.
there are many things ppl assume that i know. i should do. i should get.
what ever happened to " never ever assume"
i hate assum-tions.

i have to constantly tell myself to keep up with that image.
so this and that.

the essence of glenda-ness is the key to survival
i still need some glenda in me.

yes, pls stay.

the untold story>>

yikes chem test on weds// bleagh

this just hit me on the head >>
to be a great leader may sometimes mean pissing ppl off//

yeah. well said!

NEW SKIN!!

2006-04-16T17:23:00.000+08:00

whooohooooo. just look at this new skin!
ORANGE SO RAWKS!!

have yet to figure out how to insert a tagboard though.
bleargh>
guys>
try to comment at [enlightened-one.twlight-rhapsody.com] on this blog!!
thanks ;P

lurve it
ciaoz

big day.

2006-03-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

whoohoo.
so the big day is tml. phew that's really very fast.lols.
seriously hope i dun screw up tml.

hahs. anyway i shall post on the investiture tml.
i am so nervous.
so hopefully i can have a good night sleep tonight.
i bet my whole com is so excited that we will be dreaming of it tonight.
i hope its not a nightmare though. lols.

THE BELOW HAS BEEN ADDED COS I HAVE A FEELING I MAY NOT POST TML. LOLS.

i would like to take this chance to thank all those that has help us in anyway in the preparation of this very important event for all councillors.

especially jze ying and yen ling for their comstant support in the loaning of blazers.
yating for helping us with the programme list and drinks.
hakim for all the jokes here and there ==""
HUDA!! for being so optimistic in everything
Simin for reminding me and my com the stuff to be done.
brendon for the SCA stuff.
and the whole ex-co for their guidance.

MR SOH AND MR LEE for being ever so supportive.

and my committee for putting in all the hard work to make this event successful.
all the sec threes for helping out in anyway. even melvin who come and ka qiao only.lols.
and Phyillis for being my backup always! get well soon yah :P
Jun qiang for the very enchanting video!
Aish and Lee yen for the invitation cards and calling the schools.
Safwan Alex Yong qin Cheryl may for the wonderful backdrop
and Stephanie and Suyi for the souvenirs.
Andy for the AVA stuff.
Shu xia for helping out in everyway she could
AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST
Hidayat for the food and CCA leaders stuff.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!
=D

hustle and bustle//

2006-03-20T18:37:00.000+08:00

after looking at my taggie. i decided to post. LOLS
erms let me see.
okok let me start from saturday lah.

saturday.

well. after tution i went to TPC to met my mum with my sis.
then i saw Jun Qiang there! with npcc ppl i think. lols.
so after lunch with my grandmere we proceded to orchard.
wen to taka so my mum shopped so me and my sis when to kinokuniya upstairs.
finished all the OC books! lols. skipping some boring parts of course!

then i was so bloody jealous lah. my sis got this pair of Nike sneakers i was craving for lah.
cos the junior section had an offer and she needed shoes lah. so i was like so bloody pissed.
but nevermind. i saw the pair i wanted already! its $145 though. saw at the NIKE ladies shop light blue with brown. hmms.
it didn't really help much when i met this unfriendly SALESMAN at this sports shop i will not name lah. but its not royal sporting nor is it NIKE ladies. so yah anyway i was looking at this soccer balls i need a new one too. so i accidentally dropped one and it bounced to this guys leg who is the SALEMAN'S PRECIOUS LEG lah. so i apologized then he diao me lah. i was like WTH. dun wonder you so old le still working as a pathetic salesman in this small shop lah. when attitudes like this u can't go far lah. btw, i want to point out that the rack for the soccer balls didn't have any do not touch or bounce sign. so even if i messed the whole shop and DON"T break ANY thing i can still walk out the shop and u can't do any thing to me lah. but obviously i won't do that lahs. thats so mean lah. so i was very pissed lah. he didn't even bother to like say " dun play with the soccer balls here. thanks" i almost wanted to buy the ball somemore lah. see cos of that guy they just lost a $30+ business.

AND they were having a SALE. when most of the shops AREN'T!
see! i think its cos of that guy so no business.lols.
anyway i can't be bothered lah. and i won't ever visit that shop again.

hmms. other then that i bought yen leng a present!
shopping lightens the mood man!
felt much better after that.

hmms
rather worried about the investiture.
still not all done yet.
left with programme list and hanging up of back drop
and the confirmation of the guests list.
i guess everyone is so busy with their lifes.
but SO AM I.

go away stranger. i no longer know you.
you have changed or maybe i have. we know that it will never be like before again.
never.
let me go.

ciaoz guys
back to the huste and bustle.

bhaw//

2006-03-08T18:26:00.000+08:00

no.11 of beatty girls soccer team stepped into the bowen field with a heavy heart.
so how many goals are we gonna let in today??- she was thinking at least ten.
by the time the first half whistle was blown. her side was losing 3-0.
she was losing fate but still remained on the pitch. taking in whatever she could as the coach screamed his head off telling the team about that performance during the 10 min interval. though it was meerly ten mins, it seem like the longest ten mins of her life it was now or never. he definately demanded respect. there was no other way except his.
what else could go wrong? afterall she was playing a position she has never ever thought of a LEFT BACK. she was a left winger which usually was more attacking then defending.
so the coach seems to be asking a little too much. she remained vigliant.
seeeking her team's help at serveral occasions so as to make sure the offside trap percolates.
it worked most of the time much to her opponents dissapproval and discontent. giving her glares of unhappiness within those fiery eyes.

she didn't really care. ultimately it was just a game.
the blazing sun didn't help a bit. not at all.
constantly distracted by the sound of the military band, this gave her opponents chance to foward. and they did. they forward as she plunged half hoping that lady luck would be on her side. it wasn't as her opponents jumped with joy about this glorious moment of their lifes.
she flinched as her sweat dripped down her neck proving the long run she just made to be extremely tedious. the score sheet wrote 4-0. the chase was over. why bother?

she gave up a bit though she consistently reminded herself to never give up.
deep down she knows its over. how long more the torment will go was another issue.
as she shriek at her newly subsituted defenders. this was no good. they didn't listen.
the consequence was unbearable. it became 5-0.

she was anticipating that as she tried to keep us with the ball as it landed right in front of her. in the net. pointless trying to look at her oponents, she shut her eyes and prayed that this would all stop. the torment was overwhelming. almost too much for her.

the whistle blew once again. finally.
another defeat meant another long day ahead.
but the team's spirit and morale was not down.
because afterall these it was just a soccer match that has no particular influence on their future or whatsoever. IT WAS OVER AND SO BE IT.

that no.11 was ME.

LOLS. my story nice??
lols. felt bored so decided to write a story instead. hahs. partially factual partially not.
i wans't even sad you see. it has numbed me. lols. but anyway, CHEM TEST was so difficult!!
as usual. i couldn't balance the damn equations. but on the bright side i scored full marks for my EMATHS test! @yay@ i still got some chinese HW to do so

ciaoz guys.

PS. was so surprised when sam they all say they wanted to get me the OC disks for my birthday. hey guys thankyou. but NO THANKS :P its too expensive lahhs.

tests tests and more tests!!

2006-03-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

just receieve shocking news of a new chemistry test. my heart skipped a beat.
it will never rest huh?? test after test after tests. splendid huh?? whatever.

so the test coming up erms- chemical equations i think so loads to memorize lahhs.
WTH. and e1 isn't having the test!- can feel the jealousy within me growling. lols.
but they have a bio test on friday lah. so not so bad- jealously starts to shut up.lols.
erms still haven found the right book to practise and i am still slacking here.

have AMATHS work to do. remedial today. first remedial so far.
physics teacher say we have to come back during the march holidays to do some work lahs.
sians lah. i am so packed already!!

for the holidays i have:
red cross camp 15-17march
one day set aside for preparation of investiture.
one more day for sam they all to come to my house to watch movies. (this is optional though)
another day for remedials-which somehow sure won't fall on the same day so..

that's my so called march holiday you know : /
now you see why i am stressed.
i know. many of us also have this kind of packed shedule but yeah.
i feel the stress.

gotta do my revision.
shall post on weds yah.
after my chem test and match against siglap.
can expect a post full of COMPLAINS ON HOW HARD THE CHEM TEST WAS AND HOW BADLY WE LOST. LOLS.

see ya!
ciaoz =)

PS i wanna OC cds!!
totally addicted.

undeniable fact//

2006-03-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

since there won't be 2 tests next week anymore. left with E maths only-monday. i agreed going to town with my mm and sis today. lols. such a slacker right. but anyway i read the OC at borders!! finished one book i think is the second half of the first season. starts with marrisa going to the "asylum". nice. then had burger king for lunch. mushroom swiss!

i just realise that i actually poured my heart out to the 2 most unexpected ppl yesterday.
i just felt so comfortable with them. like they definately will understand my situation.
it was likely that since one of them is currently the RC chair and the other in ex co. what they are now is what i shall become of. i never doubt the trust between us. which was so unlikely of me. my instincts lead me to them.

this was like the whole issue that kept me pondering on and on.
till now i still dun know why i didn't do all these to acasius mel or gid or even sam.
why?? of all ppl i told them?? i mean they are great ppl but i aren't really that close to them you know. closest are sam mel gid and acasius. nvm. i guess life has a funny way of working.

maybe we all just clicked. and then i sent every thought and every feeling i felt the past few weeks to them directly. no second thoughts. yeah. no second thoughts..

thinking and thinking.
ciaoz guys.

blank.

2006-03-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

okay so as usual we lost just that its 5 nil this time. no big. its starting to seriously numb me. all thia losing and not scoring any goals. we are just there for display and may i add a " do not touch sign"?? the whistle was blown twice from the refree cos i kinda maybe in some small little tiny stupid way pushed the gal. lols. yeah// nvm. glenda was never known to be rough and thus she shall never be. lols. joking lahhs.

we have fallen and we can't get up

hahs. anyway after that we sam lionel and me went to pizza hut to eat. pizza?? yeah.

then took a bus home because both of our parents refused to fetch us.lols.

and erms. wad else.

nothing much lah. but just very fun lah. most of the time we were like saying lame stuff.

oh yah! in the MIDDLE of the second half my CONTACTS dropped out lah. so lionel had to sub we out cos i like can see one eye properly the other side cannot so irritating!

it didn't really dropped out lahhs. just that cos very hot-didn"t rain suprisingly. it always rained when it was our match.lols. the i kept rubbing my eyes cos the sweat very itchy lah. the it kinda came out. i tried to put it back but cos it was too light it flew off my hand. lols.

then before the match i talked to xinyi and yenling quite a bit.

my messy and ever hectic life story so far. lols.

the i kept saying that i am maria the maid. lols. long story but was fun talking to them lah. very nice to disturb.lols.

anyway. i am absolutely devasted with my chemistry test 2 results.

thus i am going to mourn for a few mins. lols.

then i remember the dun complain thing. so i kept quiet after that. lols.

ciaoz guys//

good night :p

BREAKIE//

2006-03-01T21:34:00.000+08:00

YESH! A BREAK FINALLY!!
WHOOOPHEEEEE.
seriously at long last.
can't help but kept surfing the net for O.C scripts. i am hooked onto it man! x)

anyway. got back my physics test marks got 24 for the dynamics wan and then erms 18.5 for my re test. quite okay lah i think. anyway even if i really did do well there's nothing much i can do already.

nevertheless. chem test was as challenging as EVER. i did even know substance was that lah. wad CO 2 minus then wad plus H 2. i was like okay. calm down glenda you studied u came across this SOMEWHERE> the the other side of me is like WHERE GOT?! come back to reality lah glenda just anyhow bullshit and prepare for a retest lah. WTH. LOLS. mrs singh still say EASY LAH. for her standard obviously easy right?!

then had investiture meeting after school today.
got a shock when i realise that it was just like wad another 27 days away?!
so mr soh said that we have to get started so i planned a meeting with the sec 2 and 3 tml morning. to see who would be kind enough to help. LOLS.

then erms. i was glad that in the end everything was resolved and that we would all be able to work together after all. i now i can be rather not serious at times but i do have my "FIRM" moments. but apparently i just can't seem to get hold of them today as i kept playing a fool. you know me.. partially due to the fact that amanda was there and melvin and acasius so fooled around more lah>> lols. but i am the one who's suppose to be firm so yeah.

anyway.
no test till next week !!
yay@!!

ciaoz guys

I AM SO HOOKED ONTO O.C!!
ANYONE CAN LEND ME THE DISK???

LOLS.
joking lahs. byeeees

on M.C//

2006-02-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

so i am on MC. great. absoultely wonderful. haven i been kept asking for time?!
yeah. but guess what. at least dun be sick lah.let the whole world stop and i do all the stuff i need to get done then can le.

see. a typical case of " BEWARE OF WHAT YOU WISH FOR"
WTH.

anyway yeah i am serious not feeling well.
vomitted around 2 in the morning then had diarrhea-not sure if spelling is correct- but you know what i mean lah. then had this terrible stomach pain that kept me awake till four plus.
it was the most agonizing time. EVER. is like pain until i cannot sleep and then i cannot do anything but to like roll into a "shrimp" closing my eyes tight and hoping that some magical force will take the pain away. then still can hear my sis talking in her sleep then i was like huh u calling me ah?? then she continued to blabble on. =="

nevertheless. i missed many lessons today lah.
the more important ones are:
chemistry
A maths -4 PERIODS lah WTH
physics test
geog test

actually planned to go back to school to take the tests in the afternoon but then i was thinking with my shitty look might even scare ppl away lah. went to see a doctor - says its food poisoning- i have been poisoned!! who would poison me?? i am such a nice person.//
lols. just for fun lah. much drama a bit. lols. still having some stomach pains here. hopefully i will be in good form to be able to play on weds match. wonder if i am on the first eleven. see i missed training. bleagh. so slept worse than a pig when i came home.
slept form 10 plus to two lah. lols. PIG PIG PIG! lols.

waiting for mel to call me and tell me that -hopefully

"eh we have NO HW AT ALL today lehhs"
come back to reality lah glenda. since when did this NO HW THING EVER HAPPENED??
lols. so yeah.

ciaoz guys :)

and may the foce be with ME!

thinking hard//

2006-02-26T18:04:00.000+08:00

hey peeps. lols. i am finally blogging again. so long right? lols. yeah i finally decided to give myeslf a BREAK. honestly i think i am over stressing myself. lols. what to do? got tests after test. meetings after meetings. trainings after trainings. and thus leading to me lagging and lagging. lols.

anyway was msg-ing sharon the other day(erms not really day lah. it was at night actually)
and found out that she has like so much more things to do then me. she has like a full pack shedule for the week which is actually for the WHOLE YEAR - 365 DAYS!! gosh!

but the point here i want to make is that i kind of think that i complain too much lah.
i asked her how she coped but she didn't really reply. i guess she doesn't really know how she does that too. lols. maybe its just natural. and she doesn't eally complain i guess.

and i am like. "HUH got test again??" "meeting ah. okay lor" hmms.
see. the so ever original lazy GLENDA//
maybe i should really start to erms look at it in a more positive way??
yeah. then it will make my life better then.
and i think i must thank sharon for that huh.
quite ironic right. as i usually bicker a lot. just for the fun of it. hahs.
so "thanks sharon!" though i dun think u will see this.lols.

hmms. i feel much better now.
i mean like everybody has to go thru this.
and since i have to go thru this anyway. i must as well happily do it.
lols. even if i fail or wadever.
but its not going to be easy. think i will still complain at times. lols.
like i said this is the original me. so yeah how can i change so easily??

ciaoz guys :p
indeed enlightened.

sheesh//

2006-02-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

i am feeling so bloodly stressed. all of a sudden.
i have a physics re test and E maths test this friday!
and i can't bloody freaking hell find the answers to the first test on moodle lah.
WTH. i set aside time to find it and do my corrections and i have got nothing done.
i am so bloody pissed.

nevertheless.
holy innocent's investiture was nice.
the ppl were very friendly.
i saw my primary school friend there. lol. from cedar.

very busy.
take care guys!
ciaoz.

lallla//

2006-02-17T19:08:00.000+08:00

hahs. so just finished a match with zhenghua sec and guess wad??
we lost six nil lah. LOLs. and i the strangest thing is that i am not even upset about it. AT ALL//
just that like we know ourselves more and where to improve lah.
lols. hahs. six nil. anyway it was raining damn heavily lah. it was a downpour andeven had lightining and thunder so scary. so we had to postpone the match. and if we ever go back we start from six nil lah. so like wads the point?? and the school is so damn far from our school. its at like wad pasir pajang. and our school TOA PAYOH lah. lols.

and melvin was as usual ranting on how lousy we were and i was so irritated i kinda told him off. i mean like he's not even a sports person or wad eva lah. like he can play better the us. he cannot even tahan NPCC lah. some guy he is.

i can see him posting some stuff defencing himself on my tag board after reading this. lols.

anyway maths test today was great. yay. hahs. hopefully i will do well :D
lets see. hmms. yeah didn't go for red cross today my apologises- have tournament.
erms. and i am so excited about all the ideas on te investiture!!
hahs. its all so cool :P

lols.
ciaoz guys.
need to post on my chinese blog =='' >> www.chineseandmorechinese.blogspot.com
some school thing. lols.

expect the unexpected//

2006-02-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

expect the unexpected>>
this will be my advice to all.

yup. seriously.
things didn't turn out my way. refer to previous post.
dun get me wrong// i am feeling okay
but a little mixed about the situation i am faced with.
should i take it up or should i let it go??

many ppl have been talling me to take it up
have fun
give it a shot

but guess wad that shot can be deadly.
and i dun wanna die.
i know i know.
this is like once in a life time thing to feel so powerful
to be given so much authority.

even PHYLLIS HERSELF have been telling me that//
who on earth can be so self less??
PHYLLIS.

she wanted it.
i was given it.
WTH.

should i return this that doesn't really belong to me??
can i turn back??

all has been said and done
there's no turning back//

*lost three one to AMK sec. first match
raining heavily.
dun wanna talk about it.

interview blah blah 2//

2006-02-08T18:43:00.000+08:00

whoohooo. i feel so free spirited NOW>> yeah right now.

and so the story continues from yesterday.
with tremendous support and encourgement from my parents, peers and friends,
i managed to dragged myself to the general office for the interview.
and now i feel great. ITS ALL OVERRR!

and guess what?
throughout the whole interview, phyllis and safwan were the more outstanding ones compared to me and andy i should say. so i think phyllis is the most suitable person to take up the presidental post for the council.

our principal and vice principalS made us nervous lah.
they were less than a metre away from us.
anyway though i am sure that i will most likely not get the P or VP post i am HAPPY!
hah. i feel free.
haha.

i must add that phyllis is really a good leader and she will be well recieved and respected by the whole council. hahs.
i feel that this new badge of ex cos who will be taking over are so complete.
so...
PERFECT i would say.

during the interview, we talked about many issues.
it then dawned on me that there was so much to be done
so many ideas!!
isn't is great???
i just can't wait for all this to begin.
anyway.
TML'S OUR FIRST SOCCER MATCH AGAINST AMK SEC.
gosh i am so bloody excited .
but can't help but to add that i hope my jersey will shrink after i wash it man.
its so BLOODY BIG!

hahs.
whooohooooo.
ciaoz guys>>
and special thanks to all who had rendered help and guidance to me =D

HELP! i need some SIGNS>>

2006-02-07T20:28:00.000+08:00

yep. i seriously need some signs to guide me thru this difficult decision making time. dun get me wrong here. i am definately happy and contented to be able to get into the ex-co. BUT NOW. president or vice president?? i dunno if i can cope with all these. i have got commitments out there waiting for me. i mean i am still in the process of recovering from a state of shock after xin yi told me told me that i was to take over her as the chairman of red cross. seriously. it all happened so quickly. everyone seems to know wads really going on and i am like standing in the middle of nowhere and ppl are like zooming pass me.

can u gimme some time to digest whatever you have said. SLOWLY pls.
red cross chairman
ex co

CAN I COPE???
i have to go for a interview tml mr boo mrs tan and mrs goh will be like interviewing me.
wad am i suppose to say.

me being selected tells the expectations the teachers and my peers are expecting of me.
what if i dun perform well.
WHAT IF??? everything...

i have this huge pressure right now.
SHOULD I NOT GO FOR THE INTERVIEW AND JUST BE A EX CO??
SHOULD I??

i have my studies red cross PSL now council.
ARE THEY ALL THINKING TOO HIGHLY OF ME??
ARE THEY??

WHAT IF I DUN LIVE UP TO THEIR EXPECTATIONS??
WHAT IF I JUST CAN'T COPE AND FALL BEHIND OF EVERYTHING??

" WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY"

now i truly know its meaning.

WHO CAN I TURN TO FOR HELP??
FOR GUIDANCE??

SHOULD I JUST LET IT GO??

SHOULD I??

god i need some signs. help me.
totally lost.

*seeking help from my parents.

holiday is overrrr//

2006-02-02T21:20:00.001+08:00

hmms. holiday is over le. new year mood is still hanging around..
hmms. lets see. weds was like so shuang lah.

many of our teachers didn't come so ended up almost half day is free period de.
so most of us were like chiong-ing our maths HW because our maths teacher didn't come
BUT gave us work to do. complete the whole exercise lah.

to be continued..

cos lee yen suddenly tell me that council proposal is DUE TML!!
going to chiong now.

BACK! so anyway where was i??
yup. was going to talk about the past few days.

THURS//
hmms. lets see.
can't remember much.
erms. eh ahs. got back chem test.
contented with my marks
chinese spelling
and MATHS TEST.
with absolutely horrifying marks for my MATHS test.
got 14/20.
quite pathetic i would say.
when most ppl got like wad 17 -18. LOLS.
but yeah. wads the point now.

came back and ironed my clothes and i scalded myself. is it scalded?? can't remember.lols
on my hand lah. now got scar looks like i got sucidal attempts like that. so stupid.

FRI//
hmms. today was okay lah.
still carn connect with my physics. carn understand lah.
maths is still okay. lg and In

erms. was rather stressed today as xinyi was steping down for a whle to concentrate on her studies resulting in hariz and me taking over red cross stuff for a while. i am still under probation lah. anyway the chances of dicky getting the chariman post is rather high i heard he is the probation VC now. so its like i have to admit that he IS better then me. i am not so devoted to RC. too many commitments le.
got PSL SOCCER COUNCILLOR RED CROSS.
five lah.

hmms. it still bothers me but dun bother.
mum coming back soon. can't wait.

bye guys
ciaoz

PS. thinking of signing up for shutterfly.

NEW YEAR"S EVE EVE//

2006-01-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

wheee. today is new year's eve EVE..
haha.being lame as usual//

so had celebrations in the school as usual//
all the performance and stuff//
me gave oranges to mrs clara tan this year.. actually a bit nervous cos after all she IS the VP\
i think she can't hear me cos the damn music was so loud
and it was damn werid cos it was sung in english
new year songs in ENGLISH ==''' can u believe it??
thats wad i heard from the rest of the councillors too//
so i am not the only wan.
phyillis gave to mr boo// principal
mel mrs alice aw // master teacher
gid mrs peters//

anyway. after that me mel lee yen and gid went to J8 to eat after a LONG time//
due to unforseen cirumstances. guys u know why //

so today's new year EVE EVE//
and wad did i do??
i SLACKED like usual.
did A maths HW lah.
so now feeling very weird cos all of sudden i am free
when the past few days were like so damn packed//
hmms//
my PSL .. erms. no my sec one jurniors are hell more havoc then i thought lah//
i mean like today the kinda "fought" and the other day this gal broke up with this boy after he was caught flirting with another gal. and they only like stead for one damn week//

so i was like at lost lah. i mean to them i am like so BIG.
but guess wad?? i am the one that like keeps fooling around and like forever not growing up//
like a kid like that//
but to them i am not a kid. i am a senior who is suppose to guide them.
but hell. i dunno how//

thinking that somehow i am not really fit to be a PSL//
but anyway. i am not really bothered by the fact.
they are rather okay lah actually/
they are so cute//
their bags are like bigger then them..

hmms. guess i have to grow up too...

ciaoz guys//

my damn site on twilght rhapsody is like DOWN i dunno why.
i mean my taggie is>>
can't be bothered.

2006-01-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

wheee. for like since dunno when, i DON"T have HW today.can u believe it??!!
actually its cos i today at ss period chiong finish de. [teacher was absent] LOLS.

chem test was pretty tough i thought lost 2 marks so FAR.

LOLs.then had soccer. so boring. i am seriously getting sick of it le. but arghs. never mind. compeition is coming up so like wad can i do. not goin for tml's need to help out in council CNY stuff//hahs. just like every year lah//

was talking on the phone with mel like for 30mins just to dicuss 2 questions lah.he kept arguing lah. LOLs. haha. made me a bit confused now. LOLs.hmmms. even mel had his interiew today.ex co interview that is// almost everyone is the same ans de//

hmms.tml got PSL. those bunch of naughty kids.was i really like that??hmms. ponders//

ciaoz guys//

interview blah blah//

2006-01-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

hmms. today was okay. briefly talk about my day. in a rush//

had geog test.
in the end realise it was a quiz to PREPARE us for the TEST// =='''
erms. had the ex co interview. quite okay lah. the questions they ask is like standard de lor. like "Why.." OOPS. almost forgot that i cannot say anything about it so. ZIPPED//
erms.
prepared for my chem TEST tml.
erms TYS done.
erms wad else.
...
yup. fri got E MATHS test. it was on lah.
e1- ers say will change but in the end never. also dunno why//

erms. in a rush.
new site almost done//
ciaoz guys//

lallla//

2006-01-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

lalla. erms had tuition today.
just realise this morning that my mum won a sony T5 digital cam last night at her annual Dinner and Dance last night when she shrieked at me hysterically this morning. LOLS
i was like. "huh? am i dreaming. digital cam. oh okay."....... "WOW THATS GREAT!!" LOLS
my hair was like all messy and i was like half awake then.
hmms. went to great world to get new year goodies.
quite alot of ppl. meet this unhelpful and unpolite sales person working at X supermarket.

erm. was watching tv just now and SUDDENLY thought of this person.
dunno why i have a bad feeling that she isn't feeling that great at all.
hmms. maybe i should msg her???
hmms. *ponders deeply

ciaoz guys //
good night.

rather drained//

2006-01-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

yup// i am rather drained today due to red cross. drills and drills and drills// bleargh.
rather sian also. but raja came back. ex chairman and my friend lah. LOLs.

erm. on the bright side, i grew 3 CM. wheeee. i am now 1.6 le. the power of 1 6 they like to say. LOLs. and i am 40KG!! yeah. FINALLY SIA// been stuck at 35 for like ages. since the Qin dynasty i think. LOLs.

then erm. yeah. it was time to vote to for the next 14 ex-co to take over. hmms. finally wrote it down today hahs. after comparing witha few other ppl first. hmms. all also about the same de. hahs. suprisingly all of us had the same choices and choose to put the same ppl. hahs. as usual some ppl were not so popular lah i would say. hmms. *ponders
yup. i am hoping at phyillis gets the president. cos i would be under here in any case and it would be better to choose someone NICE =) hahs. yeah. she is a great person. hmms. who else. yeah. jun qiang cheryl may aish robelle lee yen safwan like that. dunno if i am allowed to say who i put. but i think most ppl also know le lah. haha.

erms. xinyi asked us to voice our opinions on the post we have got for red cross//
whether we like the post a not or wadeva.
i am still thnking hard whether a not to reject the post. or say like i dun like it.
hmms. in some way or another raja has changed my mind.
see. seniors are great ppl to look up to when u have trouble.
they have more experience. in some way. i think they are great!

ciaoz guys//

missing my OLD life alot. alot.

the overloaded day//

2006-01-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

hmms. okay. i won't really say it was overloaded but yeah to a certain extend. yes//
had meeting. talked about many serious stuff and the discipline level in school. didn't go for RC meeting cos of this thus failed to get my programme list and had to rush through it just now.
had a meeting with the council ppl sec threes cos we have a proposal going on too.
erms so yeah.got to know wad all the ppl were like trying to do. seriously. you know wad i mean guys. i mean fervently, i never expected the meeting to like turn out this way. hmms. nvm.
then erm. wad else. slowly getting to know amanda and shi ying better. found out that they are a rather funny lot. hahs. LOLs.

thats all i think. yeah.
trying to cope real HARD on WTH is going on during science classes//
ciaoz guys//

missing YC camp a lot a lot// life was much easier then>>

rainy day//

2006-01-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

hmms. yup. its me again. i found time to blog again. hahs. that's cause i am stuck with my damn chemistry questions but mel knows the answer cos he is having tuition now.LOLs// so, extraordinary-ily, i am asking mel how to do HW. lol. rahhs. hahs. usually he is the one who copies from me. hahs.
haphazardly- new word i learnt today =p decided to make used of it. it means anyway.

haphazardly, i had soccer today after school as red cross meeting was cancelled as jananee didn't come. having it tml instead. gosh means tml after school will me packed// for the whole day sia. WTH .nvm. then it rained// NICE. hahs. damn fun. were training in the rain. harry our coach gave us a briefing on our compeition. it starts on the 6 feb. end around april like that =P carn wait but our moods were dampened when i heard news of our first opponent being last year champions. WTH. nevertheless, we trained and had a match though it was still raining. i fell into a puddle can. was all wet. LOLs. but had a lot of fun//

so dad fetched me home. managed to rush all the e maths questions within less than 10 mins and check the ans =P LURVE MATHS!! and now i am stuck with chemistry which is due tml. and i am suppose to brainstorm on ideas for my compo tml entitled " A Perfect Crime"
=='' diaoz like wad sam said if it was such a PERFECT crime i must be one of the "bad guys" cos since it was so perfect no one else should know about it lah// title like very easy in the end need to think very deep de.

being so busy makes me think of sec one and two life.
i miss those days.
ciaoz guys//

PS. i am getting rather tired with this skin. my new webbie is not up yet. anxiously waiting.

the past week or so//

2006-01-17T18:41:00.000+08:00

know i haven been posting for the past week or so ALREADY. so not me. but yeah seriously i have HW that can never be finished and TIME just seriously FLYS. so stressedup sia. got test clast week and next week too. had A maths which was rather easy got full marks. yay! hahs. next week chem test which i strongly believe that i shall fail or merely pass. just can't get the facts right. barely coping with my sciences. physics is still managable till this point of time. chem?? gone case. anyway today was rather okay. got caught up in a heavy rain and thus had to stay back in school to do HW with mel. somehow with my 2 free periods and an hour after school i have FINALLY FINISHED my un-finish-able HW. sounds like "hey that is a pretty monster." WTH.
shall recap about my past week or so:

16 jan mon
okay well nothing much today. after school had soccer training. run here and there do sets. then played a match. came back rushed all my HW. tried to squeeze out sometime to blog. carn squeez. LOL//

15 jan Sun
hmms. new year deco up. tution on linear inequalities. coping well.
watch tuxedo once again. damn funny. LOL. need to de-stress.

14 Sat
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!
sec one orientation was rather sian and boring. yawns//
been slacking all the while with yen ling. LOL. sec ones joining UGs are apparently declining.
so sian. dad came to fetch and went to some resturant to celebrate was damn sian the whole time cos i was rather tired. dun really know the seniors coming back. dun really LIKE them either. i just like it the way it is stop coming in and messing it up can.

13 jan Fri
it's FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN.
bleargh// apparently bad luck didn't start today it all happened on weds// see below for further details. LOL//
anyway it was weling's birthday. so she oredered pizza and KFC for us. thank god i didn't go for the sec one orientation camp sia. the sec ones were so bloody terrible. cannot listen to instructions; talk when they are not suppose to then ask them to shut up and listen then keep yakking.

12 jan thurs
erm. i actually forgot wad happened leh.
erms just remeber that my sis didn't go to school cos she was sick.

11 jan weds
hahs. was damn pissed today. seriously pissed. it all started after school.
so after school i had soccer and red cross. had to run to both sides. so went for RC meeting 1st since it was earlier. announced the posts/ main com for 2006-2007 under probation wans. so unluckily i kana the chairman. okay never. so i went late for soccer had to eat wad. so had to run like 3 rounds around the school as usual. think i ran more on the last round. heck/
then it started to rain when we were doing our sets. so stupid. waited for the rain to stop then started playing outside again. so somehow with all the continuous trainings. i got really sick and was looking forward to my dad's ride home. called him. '' hello dad i finish training le." "oh. i can't fetch u working now" okay. its fine that he has work to do but it was like six plus already. the bus would be like DAMN PACKED LAH. so unwillingly trudged to the bus stop. almost reaching. i happily realise that i left my BLOODY maths textbook in sch. fine. trudge back got my book. so damn tired while reaching the bus stop le. saw 163 was there le. had to run like mad can. and expected, the bus was packed i was standing at like a palm size from the steps. after a while i finally got a seat which lasted like less then 5 mins. cos there was this bloody fcking woman who kept ranting ranting once she got on the bus with her daughter. at the next stop, a woman with 3 kids and a stroller came on. on in hr arms and 2 other holding her. seeing her so poor thing. i decided to let her seat. but cos there was still a distance between her a me i must kind of signal her here. so this bloody woman i was talking about keep ranting '' aiyoh ALL the PPL on this bus are so evil see her so poor thing also dun wan to give up the seat.'' then her daughter singled me out from so many ppl on the bus and said" eh. excuse me can u give up yr seat to the woman?" i was so bloody PISSED can. the whole bus ppl were staring at me. i was like " CAN" not as if i haven even thought of that yet. she made the whole thing as if i was a very unkind person and didn't want to give up my seay for someone who needs it more then me. hey i was tired too. i colud have not given up my seat. her bloody daughter was like 5 years old can and asked me that. as if like a 5 yr old is better than me like that.
was cursing all the way home. ppl on the street must have thought i was talking to some imaginary friend.
AS IF all this weren't bad enough, my sis had a stomachache after dinner so i told her to like go upstairs to rest or something. once she got up *VOMITS* - *CRIES*- *VOMITS*. WTF. as if i haven got enough today. and it was my fault cos i kinda asked her to stand up. our carpet had to be thrown away cos her vomit was like damn stink. i hope it didn't smell like that when she ate it.

anyway. was damn pissed today. so i had to vent my frustrations her. all the ranting and stuff.
guys hope your week was far better than mine.
ciaoz//

HARI RAYA//

2006-01-10T09:57:00.000+08:00

hahs. all thanks to hari raya i am now slacking at home// wheee. thank you thank you =)
going out later anyways. and maybe drop by some gift shops to look out for weiling's birthday present. she specified that she wanted a big one. so maybe we shall get her a BIG plastic box with wheels>> you know those that can store loads of things i have a few of them at home//
hmms. yeah. that wan cannot even wrap lah. hah// weiling if u are seeing this, i am just joking as usual lah// will definately get u something nice. hahs. she's inviting us to eat pizza on her birthday// friday// we means sam mel gid aca and ME.

hahs. PIZZA reminds me of last night// hahs. ate pizza last night. super supreme and super hawaiian// i prefer peporonni// doubt its spelled in this way. bleargh.
also ordered KFC stuff//comes in a set lah. anyway was damn full last night//
watched project runway last night// quite cool sia seeing them face to face cat-fight. HOPEFULLY JAY will win lah. after seeing WENDY PEPPERS and her daughter i was thinking she wasn't that bad after all// i still hope JAY will win. this is a compeitition after all>>

then watched GREY'S ANATOMY its a show about interns// on this particular episode this guy fell down the stairs with a nail thingy and he got 7 nails stuck in his head. while the operation was going on he is still CONSIOUS lah can. talking away with the doctor // siao wan.
there was this doctor called doctor YANG i think. she is a intern lah. she was like very concern about this paitient lah so she told the DOCTOR about all the paitients's prob in the end the doctor had to stop her he said: " THANK YOU DOCTOR YAKK!" LOL//
hahas. finished all my HW except CHEMISTRY last ques. weds morning i got free period that time then do =)

ciaoz//
world greatest slacker//

it's RAINING!!

2006-01-08T11:43:00.000+08:00

its raining>>
whee. RAINING RAINING RAINING>>
so my sister came up with this IDEA of walking in the rain. yeah i know. some idea she has.
so then since it was rainging do heavily there was this drain that was near the BBQ pit so she decided that we should fold paper boats and put them on the water.
hahs. no bad lah. quite fun. but after a while our paper boats were drenched so we used leaves instead. LOL. hahs. it started to rain really heavy lah. so we had to go back. drenched too. later got tuition. A MATHS//
hmms. the stars say i am suppose to wear red today.
but i will be wearing a blue t shirt lah. i only got one red t shirt and that is MAN UTD jersey lah.

and tuesday need not go to school le. YAY! but sure got HW wan lah// LOL
hmms. dad's birthday is next sat. wonder wad to get for him. *ponders

ciaoz guys//
lurving the weather :P

todae//

2006-01-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

woke up at around 1030 this morning lah// feeling rather lethagic
had to try to finish my HW with my sis yakking away. so irritating lah can.
trying to finish my spon>> finally thought of idea and somehow i am stuck with the second line le//

flipping through the newspapers this morning while eating breakfast// saw the name SHARON everywhere lah// Today/ the strait times// LOL. its actually Iran's PM. he's ill- Ariel Sharon// msg the sharons' i know and told them their names where on the headines// LOL. i seriously got nothing better to do sia//

took a personality test >> sam mailed to me. quite lame but also quite true lah.
its about how to u place the 5 animals - cow sheep tiger horse and pig
the way u arrange them determines the piorities in you life.
mine// tiger horse sheep cow and pig. its not very good lah. considering the fact that i put tiger first need to change sia. for ppl who got the mail i am sure u know wad that means lah.
so anyway sent it to close friends// tell me yours guys>> LOL
okok. new taggy up. CBOX my old wan. but i dun really like the colour sia.
hmms.

ciaoz//
sleepy>>

camp proposals//

2006-01-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

i am currently damn sick of doing camp proposals//
been editing it for the umpteen time. WTH.
usually i am the one who go and enjoy the camp so proposals are hell load of trouble lah//
me in charge of logistics and programme lah>> nvm. so many things for red cross to do lah.
me blogging at such an hour shows you how busy i am//

anyway// today last period is my free period. wanted to do some HW-A maths. ended up slacking like usual. hmms that was "against" my new year resolutions. oops//
then had red cross meeting// discuss this edit this change this dun wan this get this done by when// the usuals lah. then left half way cause i already know wad i am suppose to do. so followed Gid Mel Huda Syu Weiling and jovin to popular to get some school stuff.
my yellow file and a orange pen!! yay.
almost missed my bus cos they all were like stoping me from getting on the bus lah. need to run for it in the end. nearly fell cos my A maths and Physics were so heavy and i had to like go under this bar lah// WTH. so malu.

haiz// still typing out the red cross camp stuff lah. DUE ON MONDAY LAH!! can u believe it?? i am so free i can do it 24 hrs right. its like one cm thick. and i still have HW and tuition. glad i finished my chinese HW le// A maths Sunday tuition do. then english tml do. i still need to learn wad chinese cheng yu thing lah. my mum claims my chinese needs improvement// haha. okok. time to multi task// haha.

ciaoz guys//
stresseduplife>>

PS>> still can't get my damn tagboard to work// getting the ever pro Gid to help me now :D

HW>>

2006-01-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

ah.. HW. i have A maths and E maths HW again. hahs//
but tml there will be NO PSL. YAY!! hahs. FINALLY one day without those bunch of naughty kids man. hahas. had to scream at them today lah.WTH//

hmms. let me see.
Missing books:
Chemistry pracyical book Volume 1
Geog workbook
Yellow Ring file for chemistry//

currently trying get my damn tagboard to work but to no avail lah.
changing it to haloscan. HOPEFULLY its BETTER :D

ciaoz//

2006-01-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

bleargh//

2006-01-04T18:40:00.000+08:00

whew. what a day that was man. so many things going on today sia.
PSLs were running the whole "show" this afternoon lah. from 1015 to 1340!!
and the sec ones were like so NOSY NOISY and CHILDISH LAH>> hmms. maybe i was like that too. but not as bad bah. hahs. so we brought them around the school and played many games with them lah. they kept asking questions and are like so NOISY lah. should talk that time dun talk. ask them listen then keep talking and talking. WTH lah. but some sec one boys very cute. like little KID like that. short and stout. haha. then their bag is like bigger than themselves// okok. i am being so sadistic.

okok. then after that we went to learn some BEATTY DANCE that i was talking about yesterday. it is so LAME lah. something like the national day dance or something//heck.
after that went back to have lessons have CHEMISTRY. and first day got homework le.
A maths. Physics. sian lah. but i finish in school le.

hmms. my stupid tag board is DOWN lah. WTH. boohoo. i am goin to stop using flashbox//
i shall get Gideon to help me make haloscan de//

ciaoz guys//
need to revise sia.
gonna miss lessons tml cos of PSL again//

DAY 1>>

2006-01-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

hmms. so school reopens.. nothing much today// got to know who are my subject teachers and the itinerary for the next few days for PSL. so hectic lah// missing so many lessons because of this PEER SUPPORT LEADERS thingy. they dun need my support lah. i give moral one can le. still need to do a DACE for them lah// what beatty dance and cheer. i didn't even know such things exsisted lah. thank god i wasn't choosen for the camp. hahs. will miss TWO FULL DAY'S LESSONS lah. which is TWELVE LESSONS. hahs. anyway will miss most of the dya's stuff tml cause need to entertain them from like 1015- 1340 lah. can you belive this man. think i so free sia//hahs. shall stop talking about PSL. its driving me crazy

hmmms. so this year's teachers are all quite okay. though none of them have yet to teach me before. hahs// our A MATHS & E MATHS teacher which so happens to be also our form teacher is so kiasu sia. hah. but i think it's because they need to rush the syllabus lah. she has told us what we need for all maths le. SIX EXERCISE BOOKS in all lah can. and we need to have two files// one ORANGE!! and the other PINK :( i dun like pink but i like orange :P which reminds me that i have yet to do my cover for the file yet. need to do double somemore lah. melvin ask me to help him do also = ='''

and i also have to finish my chinese HW which was supposed to be completed before the holidays but heck// and RED CROSS camp proposal and some write up for community service which i have some left. PLUS i need to revise cause i will be missing so many lessons tml....
oh yah!! i left them all in the locker. how smart am i man??hmmms. not very. hahs.

ciaoz guys. hope you all had a better 1st day than mine :P

and what the heck lah. i can't get the stupid announcement thing away from my flashbox. damn it man!

school reopens>>

2006-01-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

okok. i know. school is only reopening only tomorrow.
can't help but talk about it after seeing sam's blog// hahs
yeah. dunno why i am feeling rather BLANK about school reopening. hahs.
probably it has numbed me. hahs.
life's prone to be hard without all the five of us together man.
sam acasius mel gid and me.
first day tomorrow without seeing each other in the same class.
first day turning my back to borrow some stupid thing and i dun see any 3 of them any where. mel's an exception here. hahs. tml goin the same class. anyway you can see him from ANYWHERE. cannot see also can hear. haha. LOL. just joking mel. take it easy...

so let's see wads the first day has for us man.
gonna miss you guys loads.
ciaoz// been thinking about a lot of stuff recently>>
and still is.

NEW YEAR!!

2006-01-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

haha. its new year's day. haha. woke up quite late this morning. 11 plus. so had to make BRUNCH to eat. [breakfast and lunch that is] then watched a few movies here and there. hahs. a slackers perfect evening. hahs. still got 2 more shows to catch tonight. Rat race at 1915 and another show at 2100. damn rat race haven finished yet. crap.

anyway here are my NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS//

I SHALL...
1. TRY to be nicer to my sis. take note of the try here..

2. not slack as much as i did last year.

3. eat more carbo stuff. to help me put on some weight.

4. try to make more time to spend with others.

5. be "lamer" then last year. muahhaha.

6. okok. i shall cut all this crap and try to more serious at times.
awww. this is gonna be hard man.

7. learn to react faster to things. especially since yesterday's experience when sharon was faster than me. hmms.

8. take mid year exams more seriously. after playing a fool during mid year then doing better for end of years which affected my overall results. crap.

9. learn to cook. other than just frying eggs and boling water.

10. Lurve maths even more!! yippeee..

i think thats all. hahs.
ciaoz guys. have a good year.

alpha "gathering" >>

2005-12-31T21:25:00.000+08:00

hahs. the best way to spent the last day of the 2005 man. hahs.
so anyway. today was suppose to be alpha's "gathering". suppose to be huh// in the end last min only got 6 of us go. yati kelvin jason acasius and sharon. eh. only got 5 should be 6 wad. wait ah.

oh yah. still got me. hehs// forgot le. play until a bit malfunctioning. very tiring also lah.
now all my cousins at my house preparing for countdown lah so noisy. i feel so misplaced lah. they are playing wad hide and seek and i am here alone blogging. my cousin even asked me why i dun wan to play with them. then ask me play cooking with them =/

anyway. yah. so since there were only the 6 of us we decided not to go and ice skate le. cos like JURONG very far you know. then if we go sharon dun wanna go. hahs. so in the end we went to serangoon gardens country club if i am not wrong. aiyah. soem country club lah okay// course sharon has the member to cheaper lah. hahs. quite fun lah. hehs. though we were mostly playing me and aca. cos we kind of anyhow throw so funny. hehs. i had a spare strike. hahs. for the first game not too bad lah. at least got hit. the second game ah. dun bother to talk about it lah. got 16 for the WHOLE damn game lah. hah. sharon got the highest 111. hahs. for the 2nd game. got 2 strikes i think. hehs. one is i say de then really strike. hahs. coincidence man/// kelvin was a pro lah. jason was like us. just a bit better. hahs. yati was okay too =)

then went to eat lor. at the hawker centre. i didn't finish my hokkiean mee like usual. hahs. then kelvin suggested we go catch a movie- wallance and gromit i think. the clay thingy. you know... in the end we rush ran like siao. reach there in time but the tickets sold out lah. WTH// then we were like loitering at J8 for like almost an hour lah. hah. at three sharon help us to decide that we should go and play billard at grassroots yio chu kang there. hah. it was fun. the last ball just wouldn't get in and we took some time trying to get it in. hahs. then we went to play the arcade outside the billard tables. its cheap lah. 40 cents. so played some ninja shooting game with sharon and time crisis too. hahs. me not too good at shooting games sia. 1st time i tried. not too bad lah. i think. hehs.

after that we went back as each of us had our own activities. coutdown and time limits to reach home stuff like that. hehs. loads of fun. it kind of brings us closer too bad the rest can't come. we shall have a gathering next year!! shall arrange during the school holidays. hahs. next year.. come to think of it. its tml. btw, we saw yong qiang at GV. haha. he was like a bit hyper. he went like "set ah set ah!" then he gave us hi fives. hahs. LOL.

yikes! gtg. need to eat desserts le. byeeeees ppl.
AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

it's CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

2005-12-25T16:18:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. its finally CHRISTMAS!!

woooooooohooooooooooo. hahs. think i am goin hyper already. hahs.
lets see. hmmm. wad did i get for x mas this year huh. hmmmm.
soccer boots
a new bag
this cute display thing like ball and when u overturn it its like its snowing.
this very nice wallet from theprojectshop.
skeleton key VCD
and cash $200. from grandma godma and my uncle =P

hah. i am contented>>
hmms. i hate to part with 2005. many great things happened this year.
BOOHOOO. i hate to part with GAGS. gonna miss ya all.
stay in touch kay.

MERRRRRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL.
enjoying the last week of the holidays
ciaoz>>

blank//

2005-12-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

hahs. nothing special today.

went to school despite the fact that i was still sick. hahs. went around coughing at ppl. hahs. no lah. i exaggerated a bit lah. hah. anyway. the duty was tiring lah. standing outside the bookshop telling the parents to go in. sian lor. hahs. then had wanton mee for lunch. not very nice de. hahs.
erms. thats about it lah. oh yah.
BYE BYE sharon. have a good trip at thailand.

ciaoz>>

Doctor!!!!!!!!

2005-12-22T18:32:00.000+08:00

YES!!! i need a doctor.
hahs.

went to see the doctor today because my flu have been lasting for more than a week le.
all the medicine at home also finish le. hahs. so this time the doc gave me this antibiotic that is like so big lah. and this cold medicine. and some lozenges to suck. hahs. feeling better le. so powerful sia the medicine. eat le. after a while you will feel damn drowsy. but its good lah. i am not coughing le and my "running" nose is not "running" le. hahs.

still considering if i should go to school tml to help in the sec one orientation thing. my dad asked me not to go. later i eat the medicine le then get sleepy. hahs. nvm.

oh yah. got new fishes in my tank le. after my old fishes all died due to an unknown epidemic in the tank. hahs. 8 red ones and 1 yellow one. heard its for fengshui. they are parrot fishes.hahs. time to feed them le.

ciaoz//

PS. hmms. i have yet to get taufik's no. from sharon.

the chronicles of narnia >>

2005-12-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

okay the chronicles of narnia. hmms. what can i say huh??
well i shall not be so bad like what sharon said; the movie was alright okay?
it was the damn cinema that spoils the whole thing! *bish
hah. " please be inform that our air- cons are not working properly " (is there a " we apologise for any inconvience caused" ??) ah. never mind. i forgot.

so anyway. me melvin my sis and sharon went into the cinema to watch the movie. mel bought popcorns while sharon bought nachos. hehs. we didn't finish the popcorns though. hahs. it was too big lah. *grins. even sharon had to help us eat it!

basically the movie was quite fairy tale- fantasy kind-of-thing. i only like the fighting part though.(nono. i am not violent) hahs. like aways i like the war shows. hahs. braveheart gladiator.... the movie was rather draggy i thought. many parts were like not neccessary.

after the movie. my dad fetched sharon and mel home. sharon actually stays near a cementry lah. beat that. *grins.

thats all folks//
PS- seriously think i will be the first to die of common flu ever. its killing me lah. remember me. who knows. i may never see you again. hahs.

TROY>>>

2005-12-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

hey. almost forgot. anyone got TROY?? lend me. lend me.
damn. watching it half way on HBO in the hotel then need to check out. so stupid.

sick and sian

stay at Rasa Sentosa >>

2005-12-19T12:40:00.000+08:00

lallla. hehs. got a chance to stay at rasa sentosa. cause my dad has some office functions there. stayed from weds night to erm saturday morning. gets a bit bored after a while.
anyway i will do a brief journal on it lah. hehs. lol

thursday >>
so today i had to travel out of sentosa early in the morning to do fund raising for sharon lah. help her cause she need to entertain some primary school kids. lol. so me and acasius when around with the BIG box and asked ppl to donate lah. erm we manage to sell 12 walt disney pens for the day which was damn pathetic lahs. anyway we collected $200 plus on that day lah. hehs. our last stop was orchard so we asked sharon to come and get us cause me and aca were like damn tired le. stand there like erm 30 mins only got that measly 20 cents lah. when i went like " hi sir/ madm would u like to donate for the elderly??" they were like "no" or some will just walk one big round to avoid us. or they will just not walk towards us lah. walk away like we got diease like that. wah liao. 10 cents to these ppl is that big so wad can i do??

but of course there were many kind ppl around. who donated. its not the amount of money u donate but the thought that counts lah. if u dun even have the thought then WTH i dunno wad kid of ppl are u. and mind u we went to business areas lah. not as if the ppl dun have a stable job or income to give 10 cents to the elderly poor. but NVM.

there was this lady we met who was very kind. at first she donated $20 dollars for the 2 pens. then she said that the weather so hot then we stand there for so long. so she donated another $10 dollars. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

anyway after that we meet sharon le hen go eat dinner lah. dunno why sharon like very hyper. we kept goin the wrong direction to scotts. walk le. then walk back again. then realise cannot cross the road so walk back again. like idiots like that lah. LOL. so after dinner we went to visit sharon's friend who worked at Isetan. took the wrong escalator went up and down this time. ppl thought we so old still play on the escalator lah. so paiseh. hehs. lol. primary school kids like that. hehs. anyway had hell lot of fun that day.

Friday >>
when to the siloso beach. sand was damn fine there. played a while then went to swim.
went out to eat and shop. came back watch TV. eat. then went to the beach again at around 7. came back to the hotel arcade to play. played billard also. then went back to the room to watch the last episode of the rainbow connection. for half of the time i didn't know WTH was goin on lah. cause i seldom watch. hehs. in the end all the ppl were crying lah. some kind of ending the show has. so lame. thank god i only watch a few episode =P

Sat >>
checked out. went to buy x mas presents. feel ill today. the flu thing started lah. sian.
sick of the hotel le.

yay!

2005-12-19T12:38:00.000+08:00

yay!
guess wad?? i managed to make the rollar chair go down without jumping on it. hehs.
if u know wad i mean. hehs. signs that i am putting on weight. yay!

hehs. whee.

youth envoy camp //

2005-12-08T14:02:00.000+08:00

hey. okay looking back at my last post, i have to say that i was extremely stupid. hehs. WHY??
because the youth envoy camp was such a hit. so much fun many interesting games skits to perform-mini man.hehs. we all had such a memorable time. we all managed to create a strong bond.this cedar girls- st andrews-bartly sec- first toa payoh-beatty sec-hwa chong JC(hehs. facil's school) bond in Alpha was stronger than anything man. hehs. missing the camp like hell now :

anyway Alpha got first- overall champions >> we have won the war we have won the war....
our victory was partially due to taufik's wonderful creativity (mini-man was his idea) and our team spirite and of course our very nice facil-s ; yanling and sharon. hehs great ppl.

of course the whole camp was not that short and so lack of excitement. its just that a lot of things happened and many games were played. hahs- telematch> the five station thingy > astro pig > indian poker ( not gambling; worry not ) the ghost stories we all freak over. hahs. i was scared and i admit that alright. dun sleep facing a mirror/door. dun take photos of ppl sleeping; their soul will be sucked out\\ stuff like these.hehs. those times.....

anyway i really wanna get involved more with the youth challenge.hah. now we are the youth envoy. hehs :p hmmms. pretty interested in the elderly care programme. cool mah.

really had a great time there. missing all the times we had badly :
ciaoz

P.S hah. just remembered. mr lam the founder of youth challenge keep asking me to go for DNA cause he thinks sharon is my long lost sister. hehs. i find that really amusing.hehs LOL.

lalllla >>

2005-12-01T13:51:00.000+08:00

hmmms// nothing much lahhs. just wanna say that i have started to post on

enlightened-one.twilight-rhapsody.com

hehs. this is my new site. but i dun plann to shift there permently yet. cause i have not yet changed the skin to a one i like very very much// although i must say that gid's broadway production was fantastic. hehs. *grins.

till then

ciaoz<<

scared //

2005-11-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

i am feeling real real scared about the NPC camp. as in like the ppl there i also dunno. the programme list and pack list are like so brief. feeling so insecured. and i hate that feeling!
the worst is that the camp is at laborador park can!
they say there very huanted.so scared. bitting my nails.
there will be other students from different schools going. ppl i dunno.
everything is like so brief so unplanned. then nobody u know knows wad is gonna happen. and u are still goin for it. wad the hell//

i am so sick of camps.
though council camp was fun.

very very scared. ciaoz :(

council camp 05' >>

2005-11-25T18:41:00.000+08:00

just came back from student council camp. dead tired can. seriously, my muscles are like aching like siao and i had a mild fever on the second evening. but it was fun lahhs. damn fun.
got lectures and stuff but we watched the longest yard, a movie lah. hehs. very funny and interesting. hehs :p

then got many games. played the amazing race. took transport at the wrong time so ended up waliking from toa payoh to bishan then walk back to school. stupid =='' so damn tired. then on that day, we slept at around 0000 at night. woke us up at 0130 in the morning played this handicap game till 0400. i was so drained. mentally phyiscally. my grp members were all okay for the sec 2s. but the sec ones?? forget lah man. they are like so not-fit-to-be-councillors. some were like so suck up, then there were some that were so timid and one that was over-ly entu. so kan cheong la they all. a bit then panic like siao. cannot even think straight.

but i like the obstacle course the best. 25 sit up push ups 30 times of skipp and some short runnings. really tires u. but i like it. then jze ying was so funny. hehs. she was so happy that she did 25 sit ups. becos of me wad hehs. kept asking her to continue. hehs. encourage lah. she say she cannot even do 25 for NAFA so i told her to bring me along when she has NAFA then maybe she can do many. hehs. oh yah still got 25 star jumps. hehs. bet that was challenging.

hmms. so overall minus all the werid ppl in my grp i totally enjoyed the camp! totally and fully. hehs. i like the Jia Yu senior. she damn pro when she gave lectures. she was very friendly too. hehs. i wanna be like her next time. hmms. just a thought lahhs.

yah thats about it hope i didn't miss out any good stuff. thinking....
oops. forgot that i came back and slept for like 4 hours but it didn't help my pathetic muscles a bit. so still hurting. hehs.

COUNCIL CAMP 05' RAWKS //

= thinking point =

2005-11-15T15:56:00.000+08:00

i know its been a long time since i post. sorry. but i was rather busy and in some way lazy. hehs. but i am in no mood to joke today. something complicated has happened recently. a few days a go to be exact. i dun wanna elaborate on the incidentS. just wanna write wad i feel about it. my point of view that is. wad happened those there would know. those not there. it doesn't really concern you then.

the bbq event was a mess a total mess. i hate to think about it. the whole thing suck. there were people walking away with part of their memory lost and glum faces. trust element gone. no more such events again. i felt sad sad and confused. many lessons were learnt.

consequences this word has great meaning far too great that we often forget about it during those crazy times.

why did it have to turn out this way?? WHY?? things were getting worser and woser as time goes by. it should end like how i expected it should happen like how i wanted. IT SHOULD!

this sucks >>

wad is done cannot be undone. things did not turn out the way i wanted.
i am mentally drained. physically tired.
stop playing games. making us go round and round. end it. now.
please let this thing have a proper ending. a good one.

to the culprit. you are gonna regret this. i am gonna make you pay for spoiling the whole thing. this includes those who try to create trouble. idiots.

sick and tired.

= hmmm =

2005-10-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. today was rather funny?? weird?? hahs. anway erm yah had this stage production course this morning from 9 to 12 which reminds me that i will have to sketch some scenes for homework. hmmm.. okay. then okay today during assembly in the morning, my chinese teacher mr lim who so happens to the chinese HOD came over and was asking me and gid who were pei chun and i was like "wo men liang ke lor" haha. so he was like "emmm.. okay.." then suddenly he saw his hand's "skin" were so called shredding and he went like " AIYOH!!! why my hand like that??!!" me and gid were laughing like hell.haha. so anyway that explains why i am like reading and trying hard to memorise and read the "speech" i am suppose to tell and encourage them to come to my school. P6 pupils that is. hahs.

so after school me and mel went to council room and then suddenly we brought about the subject of mel's so called galfriend. so okay them they manage to guess who she was and he was like " see all yr fault lah" hahs. so anyway its not really my fault that they know now. haha. cos they found out the ans by themselves - so smart. hahs. anyway, i accompained him to do detention duty and plus my dad fetch him to Ang Mo Kio MRT. so Melvin, we are Even okay. hahs//

P.S - so excited. Class annual BBQ!!!! hahs. can hardly wait.wheeee :p

= Harry Potter =

2005-10-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

wheeeee... finished reading the sixth book of the Harry Potter in just 2 days!!
hehs. got nothing to do wad.. hehe. so just kept reading and reading :p
hehe. can you believe it? harry potter was with Ginny ( Ron's sister ) for sometime. haha.
anyway. Albus Dumbledore died. so sad. he was such a great guy alright. i was devested at his death alright after reading that i was going around in my house telling everyone he died.
this was what they said:
my sis : Albus Dumbledore?? headmaster?? who is he?? = ='''
i didn't bother to explain.

my dad : Alright. thats sad.
he pitied me.

my mum : have it ever cross yr mind that its only a story??
oh. okay. the least she could was to pretend to be sad okay.

anyway. finish up the book. and in the end harry and ginny split up cos harry reckon that it would be too dangerous for her to be his girlfriend.
and Snape is BAD!!!! he killed Dumbledore with the Avada Kedavra curse!!!
after how Dumbledore trust him! he killed him. see we shouldn't always trust ppl who were once bad. Snape was a death eater once. now still though.

anwyway.. hoping for more in the seventh book. probably dunmbledore will rise from the death or something. or maybe Voldemort will get bird flu and die. maybe even dengue fever.haha. just a thought though :p
ciaoz x)

* pissed *

2005-10-21T18:14:00.000+08:00

GRRRRRRR... i am so pissed. why do i have such arrogant classmates??
people who..opps. did i say ppl sorry i meant creatures who are plain idiots.
grrrrrrr.... so pissed. argh. going bonkers soon.
got back my results
5 A1
4 A2
1 D7- Art 49 % grr.
so overall i passed only 9 subjects.
okay. i need to chill.
making my way to my fridge now.
ciaoz.

= sick =

2005-09-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

i dun wan to be sick!! i ahte to be sick.. expecially migraines..
went to see the doctor after my dad came to pick me up in school.
i was on the verge of vommitting and my head was throbbing like hell.
so i had no choice but to go see a doc cause i had another headache theprevious friday.
the doc said that its very ma fan to have it at such a young age and i will just have to accept my fate. emm.. he says that it could be triggered by heat stress or periods or food related. especially cheese and chocolates. and i had pizza with extra cheese on sunday night and also the milo nuggets so i guess its food related. dun think its stress though. been easily on myself lately. not pushing myself too hard either. emm.. yah.. next time i wanna be a doctor to research on migraines and to find a permanent cure for it. rather then jus pain killers. doc said that the pain is due to the vessels in yr brain opening and closing. it hurts really bad. but like wad he said, there's nothing he can do but to give me painkillers. i must learn to overcome it. and the thing is that migraine doesn't kill. so you will have to go through the whole process. going to see a chinese physician soon. go and tiao my body. dun wana have it for the rest of my life. and btw, its heredity.. my mum and gran has it and so do my uncles so, this is my fate and so be it.
exams are coming ppl. next week to be exact. emm..
haha.. ciaoz.

= super stars =

2005-09-24T15:45:00.000+08:00

so depressed that i forgot to write about the singing competition last night.
the 2 superstars , junyang and the otehr gal came to our school to be judges.
as u can expect school students were crazy over him.
pushing and pushing. screaming.
worse still. i was doing the door duty. meaning i was the first from the hall who can see them coming. everyone was waiting for my signal to take pics. flash on. wadeva.
guess wad?? they were one hr late. attidude sia. haha..
and then we had to create a human barrier to prevent ppl frm shaking his hands and going near him. so fun. and we had to push the ppl away. block them.
the ppl crazy one lahhs.
haha.. had a great time!!
ciaoz. exams in a week time.

= what a day =

2005-09-23T23:07:00.000+08:00

erm.. so how should u feel when u are are like the worst among all your good friends for the FIRST time EVER?? well i felt worst then EVER.. yah EVER. seriously, you definately won't be smiling and laughing when u broke a record for your maths test. for getting the lowest marks ever. 11/15 huh?? nice.. cool.. fantastic.. probably except the fact that u are like wad 4 marks away from failing and also an average of 73 on a scale of 100. i don't think its cool anymore. not a bit. do u want me to write about science?? emm.. yes i should. i should very well do that. it as such a memorable time after all right? having to think it wasn't that bad just to realise that u thought that your answers were so different from your friend's cause your's was wrong. hah! and you thought you were right and the test was a piece of cake huh? BULLSHIT! CRAP! WTH!

argh. it would have helped if ppl around me didn't do well. but wad can i say? it really hurts more when ppl asks wad are your marks are and you replied really softly cause you dun really wanna tell and they asked again and you have to shout it out and admit to your inner self that yes, you got that marks and its a fact u carn avoid, you shouldn't avoid. and after the test comparing answers and realising that okay u got it wrong, next ques, wrong again, next ques trying to argue but u lose so wrong again. and u kinda know u are on your way of failing or another path that who ever you were comparing ans with.

::BUT THEN AGAIN::

there is always someway to get over it and realising that you are not tht bad afterall.

haven they all say "what that doesn't kill you only makes you stronger" ?

well, it almost crushed me into pieces. so i should be stronger now. I AM.

anyway like wad melvin said which found meaningful was that probably i am not that good in that particular topic which was graphs. come to think of it yes, i wasn't that bad for the rest of the tests. i will improve on it! i have to. but graph ques in the exam are like the most 2 in any case. haha.

:moving on and letting go: ciaoz :)

= stupid oral =

2005-09-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

today we had oral.. chinese oral.. and i feel very bad about it.. cause its like i hai dao sam need to go for the china teacher.. cos i was on the left when we had about 5 mins to read the passage mahhs. then she was on the right.. so like by right should be sam go first wan mahhs.. so i was like "erm.. u go first lahhs.. u go lah." so then we were queuing for ms chua then we realise that the teacher on our left has no more pupils le. she's going to pick one of us!!! how??? so i was like "erm.. sleep lah.. sleep lah." so we lied on the table and anyway, i was feeling damn nervous. so i was breathing hard while looking down on the floor. the suddenly i heard her voice, the cold and scarly and lifeless kind. [ maybe i exaggereated a bit lahhs ] anyway.. so i looked up and she looking at me with those "annoyed" eyes. then she also scolded sam a bit. then later i went to ms chua. it was okay. my answers were all short and when she asked me wads my friend's favourite subject i said science and then i went out of point saying wad erm we are different as we like different subjects and that wad erm.. she doesn't like maths unlike me..then after that and another question she finished off le.. she said " okay, u can go le " i was like " erm. okay. xie xie. "

then i jus wanna add that i am sorry to sam if i got hai dao ni in anyway, let's just hope that that teacher is fair. emmm.. yah.. hehe
guess life is just funny at times.. u dunno if you are wrong a not but your inner self jus tells u that u are wrong.. emmm. yah..
that's all ppl..
ciaoz..

= me sick =

2005-09-16T18:08:00.000+08:00

i am sick today.. got a bad headache today during the first- second period.. so i went home lorrs... to sleep and i vommitted in the car and at the sick bay and at home.. terrible.. so sick.. after which i slept from 10 am to 1330 pm.. then after reading some stuff and had lunch i slept at 14 plus to like wad now.. and i still dun feel alright.. a bit dizzy and also unbalanced. and yah.. wanna thank ms ong and ms lim for their care and concern.. haha.. the warm water amd advising me to see a chinese sin seh.. says its better.. anyway, my dad says okie, give it a try.. so prob later next week then go see or dunno when lahhs.. cos my aunt also sees a sin seh so maybe can ask her to recommend mahhs.. and i missed out loads of stuff today.. maths and history but acasius has helped me copy down notes.. thanks btw.. and also all the funny stuff going on between malvin and acasius =D ahhaha.. so funny..
i hate being sick.. i was think jus now if next time i got headache, i will buy the type of ultra strong numbing medicine and inject then i will go and sleep so not pain le mahhs.. emmmmm.. dunno wheather can a not.. eh.. thats all.. and i haven study today lehhs.. i cannot read mahhs very dizzy after that.. so sui today.. of all days to be sick.. argh..
ciaoz ppl.. then later i will sleep again x) after dinner.....

= stressed episode 2 =

2005-09-14T16:54:00.000+08:00

so stressed sia.. exams so fast coming le..in another wad 2 weeks and 3 days time???
die lah.. then today the teachers told us the topics we need to study on and its like practically the WHOLE textbook lorrs..then they even told us how difficult the paper will be as they were parents saying " why my son get so high for (any subject)? "
so now they are setting a more difficult paper.. arghh.. so big mouth your son do well not good mehs.. later end of year they fail i laugh sia then they will ask now.."why my son get so low arh?" then the teacher will say " oh, that's cause you were asking why he got so high mahhs so we set a more challenging paper so that he will get lower, now i am sure u are satisfied with the services we provide here right? "
ROFL>>> haha.. = =""
gtg.. ciaoz x)

= white magic =

2005-09-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

in the process of learning White Magic..
Divination rawks..
i wanna dream catcher..
i wanna learn how to change the endings in my dream..
i wanna learn to medidate..
haha.. just bought a book on it today!
hehe..so cool.. spells and stuff..haha.. about wiches and wicca and all the godness..

referring to the comments on my tagboard:

actually wad i meant was jus learning them for fun.. and NOT using them.. haha..
and learning how to change the endings is yr dream is not really very scary is just waking up after the dream and try to dream back the same dream and change the ending no spells and stuff.. so ppl relax.. i am no trying to be a WITCH..haha.. jus learning and reading about them.cos they seem cool. hehe.. though i admit it seems fun to try the spells but nah.. not trying.. hehe.. JUS READING>> JUST READING>> increasing my knowledge.. will post on it again.
haha.. till then ciaoz x)

= stressed =

2005-09-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

Arghhhh... i need to de-stress... feeling so stressed.. cos there are so much hw..
haha.. i need to relax..hehe.. finding excuses lahh..hehe.. well i admit i still have some hw left.. but it isn't that bad lahh.. hehe.. only the maths paper which may take some time..cos i browsed thru and it was rather difficult.. haha.. and i woke up at about 0830 AGAIN!!!
haha.. see i have no self discipline at ALLL.. nvm.. will have to try harder.. and yes!! tml.. i am not going anywhere so i can finally finish all my homework.. yesh!!!
hehe..erm wad else.. yahh// need to get my grp together to do the project work project..hmmm.. wonder when they free.. die sia.. not much time left.. aiyah.. think we just do something simple.. haha.. thats all gtg..
went to the dentist today.. i hate going.. i am afraid of them :(

= the first day =

2005-09-05T10:25:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of the holidays and guess wad?? i didn't wake up on time.. i woke up at 0830 lor.. 1.5 hours late.. anyway i finished my spontaneous writing le out of the tons of work that i am suppose to finish.. and later i AM FORCED to go out with my grandmere to Suntec City cause there's a food fair there mah.. go eat.. so i am bring my flour babies to read on the way.. can't afford to waste too much time.. lets see wad else can i bring..nothing le.. which means if possible i should finish my flour babies by today left with 2 chapters only.. then i will be back to finish up my science projects and look up the thesaurus to improve my english so far i have read the Synonyms for "walking" ONLY and there were like wad TONS of it.. god when will i finish??
anyway... i gtg now.. need to bathe and i hope i will be back by 1500 x)
trying to enjoy the holidays....

= heck =

2005-09-04T17:36:00.000+08:00

heck.. my end of years are like in less than a months time..and i have like wad 8 whole textbooks to read and absorb and there's still notes and i will still need to prtactice.. this is so rush.. heck.. i will jus have to stop wasting time now.. and i shall wake up at 7 for this whole week and no afternoon naps shall be allowed. and i shall have to cut down the no of hours i spend in front of the TV and computer. which is highly impossible.. but heck i will TRY>>
TRY...

haha.. so as you can see.. my post will be as short as THIS in order to save some time..
haha.. so we will have to part for a while now.. saded.. BUT i will be back

JUST WAIT x)

= grades =

2005-09-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

here are my actual grades for the term:
english- 69 B3
chinese- 79 A1
maths- 97 A1
science- 88 A1
home econs- 66 B3
Geography- 84 A1
History- 95 A1
Literature- 73 A2
Art- 90 A1

haha.. i am actually quite happy with them x)
i so love maths...
wheeee.. gotta work hard for the end of year though..
and i wanna thank my tuition teacher for her efforts in teaching me maths
she rawks!!

= this gRaDe day =

2005-09-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

today was such a grade day.. cause we got back our grades.. well.. i did well and i was really happy about it.. haha.. wheee.. thats why my nick was for my teachers, if not for them i would not be who i am today.. haha.. thank you so much.. rawk on teachers!!

i was seriously extremely happy.. totally.. i got 6 A1s 1A2 and 2B3s.. well isn't that bad is it..
many people were complaining about art pulling them down but in fact it pulled me up!!
but it isn't such an important subject lah.. as in home econs either.. i didn't do well for that. as expected, i always do better in Design and tec.. haha.. probably caise i am more interested in the latter.. haha.. well i feel great except the fact that today is ms ho's last day in beatty..i feel sad.. she's really nice to chat around with and also be around with.. she was actually our maths teacher for a while earlier this year.. will never forget her.. forever..
so saded :(

then i came home and when to friendster and was dissapointed that my pictures with teacher gwen has not been up yet.. hmm.. so long.. friendster always got prob. then went to see teacher gwen's pictures on her multiply.. OMG they were all so pretty and so so retro..
but i wonder whose the winner of the best dressed.. haha.. so funny so many teachers look so different in their makeup.. some looked weird and some looked extra pretty.. and their poses where so funny.. the 007 and the ah lian wan.. ROFL.. haha.. but i admit, teacher gwen, yr dress was indeed a bit short.. haha.. but it isn't that bad lah.. haha.. looked nice though.. definately retro enough.. haha.. cool..

note to sam: hey gal.. cheer up kayes.. i am sure your parents will understand..
dun worry so much.. you did very well kayes.. its the stupid art!
and we dun need art so who cares.. haha.. its gonna be over soon.
you will have to work hard for the SA2 kayes.. SMILE KAY :)

ciaoz ppl.. i am feeling so tired all of a suddden..yawn..

= Teachers Day xD =

2005-08-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

wheeeee.....its teachers day!! haha... our school even broke a record.. but it was damn tiring lor..haha.. then took pic with ms ho and her gang..gotta get their email man..to stay in touch. nice ppl wad...the concert was also damn funny..
2 students were like playing a really slow song and we had to go around and give out stuff to the teachers and it was likea a FUNERAL.. LOL..cause like we were like walking in rounds then the slow song..LOL.. haha xD
then i went back to old school and saw many ppl.. haha.. seriously dunno wad to say.. so quiet and i started to say lame stuff lor.. haha.. like a clown like that.. then i saw teacher gwen!! haha.. so funny she was trying to cut a "small" cake into wad.. like 32 pieces?? haha.. but it was okay lah.. then guess who i saw?? man.. i saw the gal "injuried" during the soccer match(see previous post). and it wass damn paiseh.. haha..and teacher gwen was like "oh hor..." pointing her finger at me.
haha.. so cartoon.. then we talked in the staff room. talked about loads of stuff and saw many pics.. all of them were damn pretty LOL..the wedding photos rawks.. haha..then i went to gid's house to finish up our project.. LOL.. uploaded the pics on friendster..haha.quite nice lah, though a bit blur.. but cool..then sent emails to ex teachers to wish them happy teachers day. haha.. to let them know that i still remember them.. i am not heartless kayes.. haha..

then i came home and was talking to ms tan about the subject combination for next year.LOL.
yah.. thats about it. AND ALSO "HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!! RAWK ON KAYES!!"

= feeling better =

2005-08-30T20:58:00.000+08:00

well, today i definately felt much better.. thanks to my best buddies and teacher gwe and probably ms ho?? haha.. told her bits and pieces of the whole thing..and she kinda "comforted" me.. haha.. thanks ppl.. i also apologised to the sturdee soccer captain. and asked how was the gal i hit. she was okay.thank god. so yah.. haha.. dun feel so terrible and guilty now. haha..

then today was a bit rush as we had to find bottles for the stars we made for teachers day. the glass bottles we saw at mini toons were rather small and ex. so we went to look around. then melvin suggested that we use the baby socks. i was like okay lor, we go see la.. then we looked like dunno wad lor.. as in like we so young then go to the baby section.. come to think of it its so paisih. wad will the ppl see us think. god.then i saw baby bottles so we decided to buy them instead. cos it was bigger. then i bought chocolates as usual for my ex-teachers. haha.. going back tml. to disturb them. haha.. teacher gwen shall be my first target. hehe.. okay. i am being evil.
talking about her. my sis that told me some stuff which i think was quite serious. think i crossed the line. oops.. sorry if i did. well..i am cheeky xD think i will ask her tml. then yah bought the stuff came back and filled it up.. haha. so fun. mix and match. carn wait for tml.. i am so so excited.haha.. going hyper le.. haha..
seeing ex classmates too.. emmm.. wonder wad to say sia.. "hey, how are you? oh, i am fine you? yah, sure, i am fine too.." then wad should i say.. like something stupid?? "eh, how old are you ah?? sec wad?? erm.. i am sec 2. so wads yr full name?? IC no.??" hahaha... ROFL of cos not.. haha..see how la.. haha.. and i am going to loads of pics tml.. haha.. but i carn smile too hard or else my cheek will hurt.. got a blu black there lor.. so pain.. yawn also... haiz.. forget about the match kays. its over. (telling myself)
whatever happened is over. you lost and its a fact. so stop fretting about it.
haha.. i am fine.. haha.. carn wait till tml man!
damn.. i am feeling hyper le xD

= bad day =

2005-08-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

i lost the inter house games today.. wad can i say.. i failed as everything..

1. i failed as the captain of Harwood C girls soccer team
2. i failed as i missed the last kick of the game.
3. i failed cause i have no sportmanship at all.
4. i failed cause i kept cursing when i lost which was wrong.
5. i failed cause i lost to a bunch of SEC 1 girls who has absolutly not played soccer before.
6. i failed cause i let the whole team and myself down.
7. i failed cause i missed a shot which the ball in the end hit the goalkeepers FACE.
8. and she cried.
9. i failed cause i still bear a grude against my opponents which shows that i have no SPORTMANSHIP AT ALL.
10. i failed cause i failed.
11. i failed cause i feel bad..
BUT..

WHY DID I FAIL???

1. my team wasn't ready.
2. the other team was rough
3. hit me and my spects dropped on the floor.
4. didn't apologise..
5. the first team we played with was sec ones thus we did not hit too hard at the beginging
6. gave chance to them
7. which resulted in a nil nil draw. and shootout
8. then i hit too hard and hurt her.
9. i was the bad guy now
10. cause i have no sportsmanship
11. and i cannot accept the fact that we failed
12. THUS I FAILED.

I FEEL>> SAD>> BAD>> ANGRY>>

I HAVE TO CHANGE..
I HAVE TO LEARN
I HAVE TO FORGET ABOUT THE GAME
I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT THIS IS JUST A GAME
AND DUN TAKE IT TOO SERIOUSLY
AND LEARN TO RELAX
AND LEARN TO ACCEPT FAILURE
AND LEARN TO FAIL WITH PRIDE
AND HAVE SPORTSMANSHIP
AND LEARN TO STOP CURSING.

I APOLOGISE FOR..
1. hitting the ball so hard
2. that it hit the gal's face
3. and she cried as it hurts
4. cursing
5. playing in the most un-sportsmanship way
6. saying " i want to leave now, this is disgusting!"
7. when we were down to 3-1
8. being so difficult during the game
9. playing like i was some sort of gangster and beng when i was really angry..
10. being angry. cause i am really not now.

i want to thank sam, agatha, hui quan, chole and hui hui.. for all their efforts.
thank you. we tried our best le :)
ciaoz.

i am so down. ashamed.sad. angry.

= super hyper day =

2005-08-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

today was like one of the best day ever.. getting hyper and things moving.. so so so fun....
haha.. beatty played well.. although we lost most of the games BUT the badminton team still won a 2nd place i think.. super great day!!

haha.. let me start with the netball la.. haha.. the whole team was great!! haha.. the teachers were all in possesion.. haha.. then ms chua scored the one and only goal in the match.. the 2nd game.. okay lah.. this time we lost.. but its okay.. though i keep saying that the refree is biased as they are from the school.. so but never maind lah.. ITS JUST GAME GLENDA!! i kept telling myself.. i always get very pek chek..i so dun have sportsmanship.. haiz.. got to learn.. GREAT GAME TEACHERS!! RAWK ON!! haha... ms ho was very on.. haha.. she kept defending.. haha.. always trys to get the ball.. haha.. so on.. haha.. the other teachers were also very pro.. always trying to intercept and get the ball from the opponents.. ahha.. in the end we went to support the basketball team.. it was so funny in the end.. cause anyway we were losing so ms tan, ms ho and ms gan went to sub for mr wong mr chan and mr yeo.. cause thery were really tired le.. so guess wad?? haha..they were like playing netball most of the time.. haha..the opponents who were guys gave them chance.. haha.. purposely lose control of the ball.. haha.. then ms ho and ms gan were so cute.. looking lost but daring.. haha.. then in the end at about 6 we left cat high and proceeded to Bishan MRT.. haha.. they dunno how to go lor.. haha... as in ms ho, ms gan and ms pang.. haha.. then we kept disturbing them on the way, me and sam.. haha.. them block their way.. haha.. it was so so so so so so so sooooooo FUN!!!!

haha.. i had such a great day.. i won't forget this day forever man!!!!
RAWK ON TEACHERS!!!!!!

= hyper day =

2005-08-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

today was so so so FUN!!! i toatlly enjoyed myself so so so much!! god.. haha.. playing netball with the teachers.. haha.. so funny snatching the ball and stuff.. then ms ho was knocked down.. haha..okay.. that was mean.. haha.. but yah.. she got up.. strong wad.. whee.. it was totally fun.. rawks man.. and we are going to support them tomorrow at cat high.. haha.. teachers versus teachers from other schools.. they are going win man.. ms chua and ms tan can shoot.. ms ho and her friend, ms gan can defend and ms chan can run around and intercept really well..and ms ho super hyper.. so much energy. kept blocking me and intercept my balls.. pro sia..haha.. that's good man cause we can beat them.. oh yah.. there are still ms huang and another malay teacher who played with us as well.. haha.. rawk on teachers!!

haha.. goin to stop here le.. cos i am really tired ( cos of the netball game)
= ciaoz x)

= happy =

2005-08-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

wheee.. today was great.. other then the fact that mrs goh didn't come and the relief teacher was like wad.. pathetic? yes and mean too.. i think.. as in she was too stict.. and also finds the steps that mrs goh told us weird.. she disagrees and insists that we follow her method.. weird characther right?? as in HELLO?? she's just a RELIEF TEACHER.. nvm. i so like mrs goh now.. and learned to appreciate her.. sam gave the idea.. haha.. see.. we must lose to realise how important or nice they have been.. it makes us notice and appreciate them..
anyway.. after school, we had supp class for science and it was just so FUN!! partially due to the fact that me,acasius, melvin and gideon were like having fun asking ques and also disturbing ms lim at times.. haha.. she's so nice.. haha.. very fun to be with.. then we learnt about her chinese name and age haha.. and most importantly science.. haha.. test coming up this fri!! haha.. ms lim set wan lor.. haha.. as a result of this supp.. i went for red cross late so no attendance lor.. so i didn't go and waited for my dad to come.. haha.. then we went to fetch my mum together.. came back then studied for science test.. got some queries thus went to make an appointment with her through her phone no.. high tech..but she's not free so i will be asking her during PW period tml..
haha.. oh yah.. after supp.. we saw ms ho outside so we started chatting.. haha.. so funny.. antique and ancient.. haha.. shrink when you grow older.. it was fun.. chatting.. cos very long never talk to her le mah.. lots of laugh though.. her expressions.. haha.. its was just so funny.. haha.. then i challenged her to a netball match tml.. haha.. jsu play for fun lah.. some of the teachers are training for the match.. inter school somemore.. so play play and see their standard.. haha.. not that i am very good lah.. in fact, i seldom play netball.. haha.. you ask me play soccer at least i can.. haha.. but i am still giving it a try though.. seems fun x)

and to add on.. WHY IS EVERYBODY STUDYING FOR THE END OF YEARS LE????
so fast.. omg.. its spreading.. lets just hope that its not contagious.. cos i am not really studying..
haha.. understand can le lah,for me.. JIAYOU PPL>> ALL THE BEST>> haha.. this is to sam gideon and melvin.. the hardworking ppl.. [oh, i feel so ashamed that i am not studying.. hehe..]

great day! x)

= fine day =

2005-08-23T18:17:00.000+08:00

today was quite okay lah.. got nothing much to say lah.. erm.. today stay back to sing songs for the teachers day concert.. tml audition..haha.. so quite rush..
yah lah.. then today melvin scold me lor.. early in the morning.. haha.. cause his xin qin not good wad.. i also a bit lah.. haha.. dunno why.. very sian lor
then.. yah lor.. like that lah..
oh yah.. then we kept disturbing melvin.. say he and stephanie.. haha.. so funny.. then he like dun care dun care like that.. haha..
then i saw this chubby baby boy at lunch.. OMG he's so cute lor.. got six pack lor.. on his arm lah.. he's so so cute.. man..
IT RAINED TODAY!! so cooling.. i love it when it rains..
whoo.. teacher's day is coming soon man...
excited to go back to primary school.. go and disturb teacher gwen.. haha..
and go back to see the teachers how lah.. so long le.. cos i chinese new yr never go back.. ahaha..
meeting my ex-classmates.. dunno wad to say also.. haha.. there is a gap now that we have not talked for so long and everyone has changed.. haiz..
then i went around saying my $34.50 joke.. so funny, so funny most ppl dun understand..
haha..
cheers!

= weird day =

2005-08-22T17:50:00.000+08:00

well, today was a rather serious day.. saw the public canning take place.. but i doubt it hurts.. cause there was a piece of cardboard "protecting" them.. haha.. not laughing at them though..
but i seriously think that they deserved the punishment.. going around hitting ppl.. wad the hell were they thinking man?! then this morning, mr. ang, my pe teacher told me that the inter-house games are NEXT WEEK!!! as in NEXT WEEK!! in 7 more days!! and me and kriffith didn't even know lor.. so sudden.. we are playing street soccer! haha.. i so love soccer.. rawks!!
haha.. then the absolutly.. i dunno wad to say.. may may.. went to use a penknife or something to create a HUGE scar on her arm now.. so that nobody will know.. as in now its covered..
its like wad the hell is her problem?? then during p.e.. she PURPOSELY act like a CRAZY person an inmate of the IMH or something.. when ppl look at her then she will PURPOSELY stare up to the sky and start to smile and talk.. i mean its so fake lor.. hello!! i am not a three year old kid.. do you have better actions to show me??!!
its like the main questions are that why did she cut herself in the first place??
1- To gain attention??
2- To die??
if she wants to gain attention.. well there are many other ways.. in fact there's no need to do that.. why the hell do you want to gain attention for?? you already have enough!! being known in the class for being very " touchy" with girls.. so it should be that she wants to die lah..
then wad for cut and leave a scar?? CUT HARDER and JUST DIE!!! stop wasting my god damn time and the class's time.. the class spirit.. i mean everybody was like "hey maymay.. wad happen.. dun like that lah.. be more cheerful and open minded..." did it help?? i admit i tried to do that too.. but did she listen?? she totally disrupts the class!! everyone has to stop and give her some attention!! and almost everyday she will have new news.."eh.. today she cut her where leh.. very big scar leh.." then some days later " eh.. maymay say hor she will wad jump down the building leh.. how are??"... " eh.. today hor.. she keep laughing to herself leh.."
wad the hell.. like that still not enough attention ah??
its not as if i am writing all these because i am totally heartless or cold-blooded..
don't you think wad i said made sense??
we seriously did try to help her.. now and then i think she has to go for councilling.. but apparently its not working... so even if ppl help her BUT she refuses to help herself nobody can help her.. and i dun even care about it now.. her news.. cut then cut lah.. your body wad not mine.. the thing is that the more she cuts the faster she dies.. it may be good it may be bad..
but thats her life not mine.. so i think i shouldn't even write or critise her in anyway because i will be doing what she wants ATTENTION..

dun want to talk le.. so frustrating!!

hmmp :(

= i am back!! =

2005-08-21T16:53:00.000+08:00

heyhey.. i am back ppl.. been some time since i updated, though not that long.. hehe.. now there are test again :( history and science.. gotta study le.. so fast.. end of years are coming soon le.. haha.. gt lots to catch up.. the WHOLE year!!
haha.. nothing much today lah.. but i am currently reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons..
its so COOL and interesting.. LOL.. i want to finish it as soon as possible now.. OMg.. i so love the book.. i wonder if they sell more then 2 titles.. i read Da Vinci Code already so.. yah.. i am dying for more his books on Robert Langdon.. haha.. he's so so SMART!!!
haha.. heard that the movie will be coming out soon on the Da Vinci Code.. i am so goig to watch it!! haha.. whee.. i am going crazy.. haha

= most embarrassing day ever..

2005-08-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

well. today is indeed the ost embarrassing day ever!!seriously!!
i went on "stage" to say the morning announcement so i said 3t2 instead of 3t1.. actually it was okay if i made a mistake.. but guess wad i said?? SORRY SORRY SORRY its suppose to be 3t1...
OMG.. i said sorry thrice instead of just saying it once.. so stupid!!
haiz.. so tml i have decided to say the pledge instead.. LOL
it was a bad experience.. haiz
then after school, i went to an old folks home to visit the ppl there.. haha.. pity them though.. anyway we had fun.. it was part of community service anyway..
tired and embrassed..
ciaoz..

= WHEE =

2005-08-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

NO MORE TEST... NO MORE TEST.. WHEEEEEEEEEE....
haha.. think i am going crazy le.. cause FINALLY, there won't be many test coming up.. except a few la.. i think.. the bo liao type.. art, home econs and.. oh yah.. science.. this one must study la..haha.. anyway still can rest for at least a day or two before i start to TRY to be engross reading the text book.. ahahaha.. thats funny.. haha.. i am entertaining myself.. haha..
and guess wad?? Sam is not going to "play play" le.. seriously, she has banned herself from entertainment of all sorts till the final year exams are over.. god.. thats going to be tough.. anyway i don't think i can do it.. i like to enjoy.. i like to watch TV.. i like to surf the net.. haha.. so basically i really carn.. haha.. not that i dun wanna try or is simply to lazy but.. its just not going to work on me.. cause i dun study this way.. haha.. but i think it will be an advantage for sam in any case since she is starting to prepare TWO MONTHS AHEAD.. haha.. okie la..

haha.. i will of cause study too.. the whole year got so many stuff to learn le.. sure test a lot.. haha.. no joke man.. haha.. anyway.. thats all ppl..

quote " i am nobody, nobody is perfect therefore i am PERFECT.. " x)

= mOvinG On =

2005-08-16T06:01:00.000+08:00

WHEE.. RAHH.. I FORGOT ABOUT IT LE.. HAHA.. ITS TIME TO MOVE ON..

so not my day..

2005-08-15T15:37:00.000+08:00

today was absolutely CRAPPY.. its was totally BULLSHIT.. well, basically it was because throughout the whole day there was crap here and there.. so no high today.. wait a min.. yah there's one.. haha.. cause i finally said hi to daphni in the canteen after school..i know its no big kay.. but considering the fact that we haven really been talking for like so long.. cause we were all VERY busy, ITS A BIG DEAL.. haha.. okie.. that actually made me feel better.. get my mind off those crap..

well, so let me start on this crappy day.. in the morning, we had PE.. so we were all very "energetic".. then we played floorball.. so okie.. think i won't say names.. okay so.. we were like playing very hard as in the whole team.. OKAY.. CUTTING IT SHORT.. basically.. i was just fed up that the other team won BECAUSE they were obviously using force and were foul-ing my team mates.. okie.. so obviously we lost lah.. i mean like that if we really fight on then we got disadvantage wan.. they use force..NVM.. heck.. i am here trying to totally erase wad happened.. so HECK!

then well.. there was this maths TEST.. i repeat TEST!!! okay.. not jus spelling or some stupid assignment.. so we had this test lah.. then at the end i was telling her that the ans was 3 so she said i wrote 3 you know but i changed to 1.. OKAY.. so jus leave it i said.. then she CHANGED IT.. TO 3.. okay that was such a "superberb" thing to do.. hell.. this is a TEST!!!
wad the hell.. but guess wad 3 was wrong so wad can i say..i got it wrong too.. oh well..
but WHAT IF she checked with a person who has the correct ans?? okay.. NVM.. this is just a WHAT IF.. so HECK.. i totally hate this.. i mean its so WRONG!!
BUT WAD CAN I DO???
NOTHING>>
COS ITS ANSWER IS WRONG ANYWAY>>>

haiz.. got to get on with life..
THIS IS SO NOT MY DAY
and whatever the horoscope says is BULLSHIT..
cause it said that i was SUPPOSED to have a fantastic day..
well cos i sure won't say this is.. its totally opposite..

AND i am telling myself now to just FORGET ABOUT IT!!

FORGET ABOUT ALL THESE, GLENDA!!

hope it works though..

quote of the day " Not that you lied to me but that I no longer believe you - that is what has distressed me. "

its happening again.. god..

= tHis dAy =

2005-08-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

oh well.. let me see.. today was so-so only.. did i say so-so?? i think it was pathetic..
haiz.. think i will do the "high of the day" and "low of the day" thingy nowadays.. well, so high or low first huh?? okie.. think the low first la.. got a lot sia..

"Low Of the Day"
well, in the morning my sis suggested that i swope places with her.. as in the sleeping area as she keeps kicking my gran at night and she carn sleep.. and my gran immediately agreed.. it was like WTF? it is my bed lor.. i so old le.. still ask me sleep with my gran.. not that i dun like her or wad but it is just not right lor.. she so small then sleep single bed then i so big sleep with my gran.. then less space.. STUPID.. downright stupid..

then the rest of the school day was okie la.. its the high..after school.. RED CROSS!!
OMG.. it actually started at 2 when it was said to start at 1.. so stupid jus becos my senior wants to celebrate this teacher's birthday.. but she apologised later.. then i wasn't that happy so i just keep quiet and let me add i was still angry cos she haven apologise YET.. so i was like buai song buai song lah.. then she say dun show attitude.. okie.. i know she was "telling me" la.. but heck la.. i carn really be bothered and seriously i REALLY REALLY dun want to be in the MAIN COMMITTEE for GOD's SAKE please dun put me in it.. get the sec ones.. PLS PLS DO THAT.. DICKY can be THE CHAIRMAN FOR ALL I CARE! haha.. seriously.. i dun care..cause this time its really their fault.. HECK next topic..

so after red cross, melvin and gideon went to my house to study Maths mah.. got test coming.. then when i reach home then my grandmere tell me that my dad is not really happy that they are coming because THEY ARE BOYS!!!!! OKAY.. so wad do expect me to do??
aiyah.. study only mah.. they are my friends.. but then we just continue to study la.. maths..got stuck at this so difficult ques.. its fun studying together.. cos got more ways to solve the prob mah.. haha .. think thats all..

"High of the day"
okie.. high..i scored good marks for my science and eng test.. whew.. at least i think it wasn't that bad compared to my class's average..science 27/30 and eng 28/40.. which is quite okie as my class's highest was 30/40.. haha.. whee..
that's all folks..

= Untitled =

2005-08-11T19:17:00.000+08:00

well, wad can i say about today?? haha.. it as awesome!! Cool!! haha.. well partially because we were all quite excited to know that we will be going to Marina for a carnival.. BUT it was cancelled.. DUE to the RAIN.. okay.. nvm.. haha.. we got dismissed early anyway.. haha.. so we decided to go to acasius's house to complete our Lit project.. haha.. was fun..white chicks was nice.. haha.. but i was happy we completed our project anyway.. need not travel around on Sunday.. haha.. then there was compo test.. haha.. it was alright.. fire broke out in the school write about the whole thing.. haha.. as usual.. no maths today.. which made the day a bit more boring.. cause MATHS RAWKS!! haha.. i love maths.. whee..

so after finishing our stuff.. acasius's mum fetched us to Bishan MRT.. thank you auntie.. haha..then i realised that my dad had actually reached le.. and me and sam ran like mad ppl towards the car.. haha.. it was funny though.. then guess who we saw at Yio Chu Kang MRT around grassroots there??? MS ONG!!! sam spotted here.. then i wanted to shout across the road "MS ONG!!!" BUT, i did't la.. haha.. of course la.. in public lor.. cannot.. haha.. later everyone look at me and send me to IMH.. haha.. so funny.. then me and sam started to make wild guesses that Robert worked there.. or she hid her baby there.. in the OHP.. god.. haha..she so funny.. she entertains us..haha.. but she's a really nice teacher.. haha.. english teacher..

haha.. almost forgot.. saw ms ho today.. she came over for a while to talk to us.. haha.. during lunch.. she said she was going to cut her hair and that we were giving her suggestions on what colours to dye it to.. then she reasoned that we must all hate her so badly that we wanted here to be fired.. haha.. but in fact we dun la.. we were jus disturbing her.. anyway.. she will be going back to NIE soon.. in 3 weeks time.. FAST.. haiz.. looks like there won't be much time left to disturb her le.. which means we much disturb her everytime we see her.. haha.. i live up to my name ' glenda the lamer' haha..

haha.. that's all folks.. no quote.. hehe..

= hOlidAy =

2005-08-10T17:13:00.000+08:00

whee.. its the holidays.. haha.. one day lah.. better than nothing LOL..revised for my compo test.. finished all my homework.. almost left with nothing to do.. so went to friendster and did some changes to my blog.. haha.. boring day..sian..

OMG.. and acasius likes someone.. its either nick or dave.. confirmed
haha.. so funny.. replied ms ho today..the e card didn't work.. haha... so paisih.. haha.. got to chose a nice wan.. haha.. anyway.. there's a maths test coming up.. so need to study and jas and sam break le.. so sad.. poor thing.. haiz.. complicated sia..

well..think thats all for today.. not a very bright day though..
saw daphni online twice today..
but dunno why like got nothing much to tell her..
probably we are all too busy and dunno wads really happening on both sides
need to work on it.. looking on the bright side of life is important..
haha.. got a quote though..

"stop indulging in self-denial.. you know it isn't this way"

= National Day! =

2005-08-10T12:30:00.000+08:00

haha.. whee.. today's national day!! whee.. went shopping in the morning.. so tired.. at centerpoint and wisma there.. quite crowded after lunch.. haha.. bought 2 tees at U2.. so many ppl.. so i didn'y even try on the shirt.. see my size is either small or extra small.. LOL.. haha.. anyway, i seldom buy new clothes la.. haha.. so when we go out its usually my mum who buys stuff and sometimes my dad.. haha..take today for an instance.. she stumbled upon this $199.. shoes.. OMG.. so ex lor..but anyway.. dun have her size so she didn't buy.. haha.. my grandparents also came with us.. my grandma bought the most stuff today..haha.. 2 shirts that were like 79 and 89 bucks.. and a pair of Timberland walking shoes.. but all at a good price la.. cos there was a 20% storewide for her clothes and her shoes were half price.. haha..

then we went home and watched the national day parade.. lol.. not that interesting though.. same stuff i only watched the contigent marching and also the army tanks and stuff coming in.. there's alot this yr.. then the rest of the show i didn't really watched.. caught shooting stars.. average la.. then watched full-circle .. so touching lor.. think its better than shooting stars.. haha.as in cause its real life mah.. haha..

had a great day.. but seriously, its really tiring..
haha.. whee..

the eve of National Day

2005-08-09T14:15:00.000+08:00

today is the eve of national day.. well, the performance at school was totally boring but the beatty idol was rather interesting in a sort of way.. haha.. so funny.. the first contestant looked like she was mumuring to herself.. haha.. then we were dismissed at around 1050??

then me,sam, weling, melvin, huda,penny and glady went to.. oh wait, and jasper and his friend too.. went to suntec to walk around.. haha.. was quite boring anyway.. cause there's nothing we wanted to buy mah.. so we were walking aimlessly.. then malvin suggested the best idea ever.. haha.. CALLING MS ONG.. haha.. was funny though.. but thank god she didn't tell us off.. would she ever anyway?? she's very nice.. haha.. then she also gave us the best idea ever.. write a compo on the topic " The boring day at Suntec City".. diaoz.. haha.. so in the end we all went to gid's house to watch Signs.. its was quite scary.. aliens and stuff.. kept screaming.. but we only watched the exciting part la.. haha.. then later that night.. i went out with my family to eat dinner and shop.. but i was too tired la.. they went to see stuff then i just wait one side and give them the boring face.. so that they will pity me and we can go home faster.. haha.. am i mean?? no la.. haha..
no quote today.. too tired to think.. haha x)
ciaoz.. good (yawn) night.

= Untitled =

2005-08-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

today.. i didn't really do lots of stuff.. slacking here and there.. went to bugis junction cause its near the National Library.. i went there with my family mah.. haha.. really big and cool.. 14 storeys.. the books are all in good condition and they have sufficient books there.. fantastic place.. think i shall make an effort to go there weekly or monthly.. haha.. Bugis Junction was quite a nice place la.. Parco too.. erm.. but i didn't really like Seiyu as its air conditioners were not working and it was damn hot.. haha.. then came home and watched Batman Begins.. nice action but was rather draggy at the begining.. so.. yah..then took a nap till dinner..

haha.. today is rather dull.. haha.. but i didn't do any homework.. haha..cos not much la.. and decided to give myself a break.. haha.. i have tuition tml.. so still can catch up.. my tution teacher's nice so i can ask her if i dunno.. haha.. and for the quote of the day..

"why do we fall?? so that we can learn to pick ourselves up again." Batman..

= mY wOrlD =

2005-08-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

not much stuff today.. the usuals la.. hear already also sian.. btw.. today is Ms Ho's birthday.. Happy Birthday Ms Ho!!!! haha.. great teacher..

okie.. first of all.. today i had red cross and that shivanni came.. and then put as at pumping position and talk loads and loads of crap to us before letting us SHOUT our lungs out for HER GOD DAMN permission to RECOVER.. but wad can i say.. "hey.. i totally hate you and think that you are a total disgrace of red cross!!!" ... can i say that?? of cos not.. i am not SO STUPID..
and i won't waste my breath.. energy and time negociating with her.. but anyway.. the street sales was fun.. and although i didn't sell a lot.. i still enjoyed the event.. haha ...

erm.. then yah.. like that lor.. they are still using theis blogs to "create" a so called debate..
very amusing.. haha.. i say u this this this.. then the other will go.. " yah.. cos i like to this this this wad.." hahz.. wonder when will it end?? and who will be the more sensible to stop it first...

anyway.. today;s science test was quit okie la.. then.. Ms Ong read out our comments for our oral exam.. mine wasn't that good i think.. it says '' the th sound not clear" .. so can expect average marks lah.. haha.. but nevermind la.. next time pronounce properly can le..haha..
think that's all.. and for the quote of the day..

'' i don't discriminate, i hate everyone." x)

= tHis pAthetiC wOrlD =

2005-08-05T10:25:00.000+08:00

hello ppl.. my first post here..

erm.. not much stuff happened today.. a few disagreements here and there.. ppl not getting along well.. and there's tests.. eng.. tml there's science.. going to study later.. boring.. had meeting after school for councillors for the new booking system.. which i think will not be so efficient as the previous one.. nvm.. lousy day.. cos my hair is now so short due the hair cut i went for.. nvm.. then saw sam's.. melvin's and gideon's blogs and webbie.. nice work.. haha

erm.. as for wad they wrote in it.. i really dun want to comment on it as its really their BLOG and like wad they say can write WHATEVER they want in it.. so ya.. haha.. LiFe's Like tHis..

i will be having red cross street sales tml.. so long and tiring and boring day.. but sch will be dismiss earlier than the other days tml.. so looking forward to that..

" just remember that if the world don't SUCK, we will all fall off"