5:15 PM

okies. i know its been long since i was here. lols.
but yes, as usual, many things happened. lols.

yet again my geog teacher has postponed her stupid remedial thrice.
first it was supposed to be on tues. then she postphoned it to weds for no particular reason.
then on weds she happily postphoned it to today pobably due to bio exam. nvm, i was nice enough to wait though it starts only at 1pm and my papers end at 1015.

guess wad?? she didn't even come. i can't use a word to describe how bloodly pissed i was.
i was like. grrrrr. grrrr// i did tore her into pieces if i saw her. thank god i didn't.
till 1:40 she has yet to come therefore all of us went off.
then, she now changed it to next tues which i have a bad feeling that it will be changed again. nvm. couldn't care less. was just EXTREMELY BOTHERED that i wasted my time in school. lols. ah nvm.

frustrating matters aside,
A MATH paper was alright.
i couldn't really solve coordinate D though. hmms.
was kinda stuck. lols.
can't do much now. lols.

tml i need not go to school! yay!
lols. i don't take pure geog you see =D

anyway, i think i am starting to like chinese songs
got some of them today. lols.

maybe by doing so, my chinese will improve!
whoohoo. way to go! ;p

talking about heart to heart matters,
been feeling quite bothered or rather amazed at ppl.
as in i know i am one. but er. wad i meant was how they feel or react to certain things.
i am feeling quite protective lately.
many things going thru my head which i try to let it come out of my head too.
but thats a bit more difficult. lols.

take this morning, i manage to get what i want but the other party didn't seem very happy yet i couldn't care less.
lols. argh. i dunno. this is so frustrating//

lols. hmms. what else. yupp ms gan i think thats her name asked for my web add. so if you are here HELLO!
hahs. i know i always see you in school so we started to say hi! lols.

isn't it how funny ppl meet?? lols.
yupp but its nice knowing you =D
hahs.

gtg.
eat. study. slack.
that's my life>>

goal by me at 5:15 PM

6:27 PM

feeling rather cranky and kept feeling like complaining.lols.
not that hyper today. lols. hahs.
very tired. muscles aching like siao especially in the arms abs and thigh.
cannot bend down or laugh or cough or even sneeze lah.
when i woke up this morning, i thought what happened lah so hard to get up.
conseqences of pushing too hard during NAFA. but got gold!! =D yay!
lols. eh. many things going to my mind. no comments lah

sometimes the WORST solution to one can be the BEST solution FOR ALL OF US>>

nvm.
i seriously need help for MID YEARS MAN!
i need someone to push me.
constantly remind me not to slack lah.
i spent 3 hrs watching tv and gluing myself to the com lah. WTH
i am so angry with myself .

chinese exam this fri.
hope i "make it"

certain things when you don't put your heart and soul into it, even if you failit doesn't really matter. but when you do, it all becomes different.

haiz.
taggie still not up yet so sorry guys.
gtg.

maybe the next time i post,
my world would have changed.

is it the lesser the better or the more the merrier??
i guess it depends on who.
haiz.
so messed up
stressed up and confused.
maybe i should care less.
i should

goal by me at 6:27 PM

7:04 PM

blah. was feeling rather pissed at the end of the day.
was rather "dissapointed" inverted commas cause i am no one to care about her actually. but WTH can't take it with a teacher i HAD a great respect for. notice the past tense used. lols.

you see, she/he up to you to guess who wanted to ask if anyone was interested in some this programme that takes place tml for like eh 5 hrs?? yupp. saw the consent form. anyways, nobody was really free so none of us wanted to go. then, she/he was like in a rage. she/he started to ask us one by one what we were doing tml what time, where, for what.

i was like WTF. my mum doesn't even do that lah. hey we are humans also lah. we deserve some respect too. think what now interrogiation ah?? WTH. to me, i felt that she was being very rude to this student especially when her grandma has just been admitted into the hospital lah. now its not the time to discuss some stupid thing you are asking us to go for the point i am trying to make is that. does she/he realise that whatever she/he just said will affect the student emotionally?? you the teacher is like blaming her for not going for yr stupid thing because she wants to visit her grandma. the time she took to actually go doesn't matter. how the hell would you know that actually for the past few days she really wanted to go but was not allowed to due to other personal reasons. and yet you the teacher had to ASSUME EVERYTHING. she unfilial now then go. WTH. TO HELL WITH ASSUMATIONS!

PLAIN UNREASONABLE. ALL YOU DO IS ASSUME! YOU NEVER EVEN STAND IN OUR SHOES AND THOUGHT FOR US. SOME TEACHER YOU ARE.

pls bear in mind that this was a teacher i ONCE respected greatly. a teacher i look up to. a teacher who could really connect with us. a teacher who i admired.
LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING: NOW THIS BECOMES>> RUBBISH.

NEXT SHE/HE ASSUME that we were - the 3e2s -the 7 of us were KINGS AND QUEENS who could change their REMEDIAL and TESTS DATES & TIMES as easy as going to the TOLIET. WTH.
she/he said that our "excuse" for not going because of remedial and tests were what "i don't believe you all can't change yr remedials to another day" whats this man?! did i just hear this from her/him?? hey teacher you know something " i don't believe that you can't change the stupid programme date to another day" just because of us. isn't this STUPID and PURE NONSENSE. just because of the measely 7 of us out of 41 you expect my maths teacher to change the remedial date?? FAT HOPE YOU KNOW. REALLY FAT ONE. // CONTINUE DREAMING AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY SOMEONE SLAPS YOU TO WAKE YOU UP!

in short, i feel that she was really mean and unreasonable. i wonder if the previous "teacher" i knew was putting up a fake mask. and this is the real one!
actually the main reasons that we didn't want to go was first for e2s we all have remedial as you know my class' AMATH is going abit slow. and many of us failed our physics test so heres the retest we all wanted. for the rest, e1s i guess mainly due to exams and stuff. for the rest they had nothing but just not interested to go yet this teacher don't tell them off yet scold those who has stuff on. WTH. did she just lose her mind?! i think so you know.

i could have been nice and took the consent form. but guess wad. why be nice when others aren't that nice. no point giving false hope also lah. later she happy then i make him/her sad again. i'm not so mean you know. anyway this teacher whom i have not much respect left of her/him, will have a hard time next time. my whole class after the lesson was damn pissed with her. creating an uproar in the class. lols. see she/he not only wasted our time but his/hers too and spoiled his/her image in our hearts. what a nice thing to do to yourself huh =O

i uttered a unwilling bye when i saw him/her at the end of the day.
though slightly regretting it later.
anyway, teacher, thanks for making me not like the subject even more and er A BIG THANK YOU FOR DOING THIS JUST BEFORE THE EXAM ;D

this post is absolutely scarastic.
but i guess desperate times call for desperate ways.
ah. now i feel much better. :p

i passed NAFA well! yay! whoohoo. way to go man>>
ciaoz.

goal by me at 7:04 PM

8:45 PM

rants>>

lols. hahs. surprisingly there was comments to my previous post! lols
hahs. dun get overly protective guys. a blog is for rantings. lols.
//}define{ rantings }} \\ ">//___ things that people talk about in a unclear state of mind }}---

lols. hahs. found in my very own dictionary. lols. at least thats wad it means to me! =D
lols. anyway shall not be blogging for a while as i will be busy preparing for my mid years! lols. though seeing its the usual me i may find time to slack and come online x)
hahs.

anyway feeling very erms. how to say. you see, mr lim wants me to go to China for the exchange trip. but on the other hand, there's a sce three adventure camp which clashes with it. and through i am fine going to china i really want to go for the camp which is in JB!
i mean come on i really dun want to disapoint anyone when everytime i see him he's like
zhi ying ni guo lai" and i know its the trip again. lols. and he keeps insisting that mrs tan wants me to go >.< [sam taught me this]lols
i don't want to please someone and in the ned i feel bad about myself and regret my decision.

trouble matters aside,
after annual awards that day, me mel sam and lionels went to thompson for PRATA!! lols. supper. it was okay lah. lols. hahs. quite fun had a ride from lionel on the way home. hahs. shiok! save all the trouble of walking. thanks lionel once again =D

hmms. looks like i got some decisions to make and some studying to do.
hahs//
see ya ppl.

i have a LIFE to LIVE ONCE. so leave me alone for ONCE!
see it rhyms! i think i spelled it wrongly. yupp. but dun bother. lols.

hey do remember to tag at http://enlightened-one.twilight-rhapsody.com/ and compare the skins. yupps. thanks alot guys!!

goal by me at 8:45 PM

8:32 PM

blahhs. mid years coming.
lols. just stop and feel the pressure dunno how nay thousnd pascals!! lols.

anyway. the council has just kinda go thru some rollar coaster ride and now we have found some light and we are heading that way hopefully we dun get lost again

anyway. my badge is really very very how should i put it??
RIDICULOUS. i mean come off it. WTH.
so many stupid things have happened and our image has once gone down the drain deeper.

and its as if i have got so little things to do that internal conflicts is on. WTH.
grow up ppl.

WTH. was so pissed off today i lost my cool and set the room into total silence.
lols. see the power that lies within me is so much that i think i am about to use it to get some "idiotic" ppl out. so as to help the council unless they can prove that they are not.

and some as just there for display. *talking about the whole council.
some just think that since i know you. you are my friend thus i will sheltered.
i am sorry. but you are so wrong. yeah phyllis! i agree with you.
we ought to teach u guys some stuff

many times. i tell myself that i am still just a just 15 year old kid that is facing and leading a bunch of "not automatic" ppl i would say to face the school. the results of this is will of course be not really fantastic. but yet do these ppl realise that some things are beyond my control??

sometimes you expect so much from that i believe you wouldn't even be able to do that.
sometimes i feel that i am facing this all alone.
and nobody is going to help me.
sometimes i feel that the world is about to collaspe and yet u run away and let it come down on me.
are u actually with me??
i doubt so.

juniors seem to getting ans from u always. but yet to realise that its actually right in front of them. they ask of so much and complain of so much that sometimes i feel they think we are super heros. they forget about things easily and i question their loyalty. they think i dun care but in fact i care a lot. do you actually know that what each of you do affects me in every way??

the way u speak to yr teachers. becomes the way ppl assume how i speak to them.
the every way u act reflects on how BADLY i have brought u all " up to".

the every single thing u do. reflects on me.
stop doing what i don't do. cause I AM NOT YOU. I AM NEVER YOU.
STOP IT NOW.

many times i feel like thrashing u guys up. yet i remind myself that u all are actually not really going to change wad ever i do. and i question myself on why do i blame so much on me/??

WHEN ITS ACTUALLY YOU WHO DESERVES IT??
WHY.

where is yr commitment?? am i leading a bunch of useless ppl or am i the wan who is useless??
i doubt so.

you are the choosen leaders of the school yet you act like its NO BIG DEAL.
you wear the tie for display purposes and don't bother about yr behaviour.

LEADERS OF THE SCHOOL?? i doubt so.

WHAT AM I ACTUALLY LEADING??
WHAT EXACTLY??

THE ANS IS >> WHAT ARE U EXACTLY. SHALL BE WHAT I AM LEADING...

so tell me wad u are and i will tell you where actually you belong.

goal by me at 8:32 PM

9:32 PM

hmms.
thinking and thinking
and still thinking.

so many things to be done yet so little time.

i have mid years coming -next fri to be exact
this leadership series the council board has to every year
especially when we are planning it this year. gosh.
the pros and cons of being the president.

sometimes i find my status just simpily over estimating me.
i mean come on.
but i try not to think about it.
i have to move on.
i have to live up and keep up to it.
there are many things ppl assume that i know. i should do. i should get.
what ever happened to " never ever assume"
i hate assum-tions.

i have to constantly tell myself to keep up with that image.
so this and that.

the essence of glenda-ness is the key to survival
i still need some glenda in me.

yes, pls stay.

the untold story>>

yikes chem test on weds// bleagh

this just hit me on the head >>
to be a great leader may sometimes mean pissing ppl off//

yeah. well said!

goal by me at 9:32 PM

5:23 PM

whooohooooo. just look at this new skin!
ORANGE SO RAWKS!!

have yet to figure out how to insert a tagboard though.
bleargh>
guys>
try to comment at [enlightened-one.twlight-rhapsody.com] on this blog!!
thanks ;P

lurve it
ciaoz

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